Short Meditation and Some Direction

Over the past couple of months I have been preparing for some serious self-healing work. No surprise there as self-healing is a never-ending journey. I wasn't aware I needed self-healing about certain issues I had buried until I meditated back in the beginning of December. Once I had the epiphany after much nudging and direction from my guides, I started gathering tools to set up an altar specifically dedicated to this self-healing as I knew it was going to take a long time, a month or longer.

The altar space is nearly completed and I meditated today just to re-center and balance myself. I had asked Ganesha and many other deities and ascended masters to assist me in clearing the space and myself before I meditated. In my meditation, Ganesha put his arm around me and told me I need to give myself reiki for 30 days and 30 nights. I looked at him with gratitude and understanding and asked, "So, you mean twice a day, once in the daytime and once at night?" He nodded and smiled at me approvingly before saying, "Yes." I saw the three candles I have specifically set aside for my self-healing journey and realized I am supposed to do the reiki at the same time I am doing this other self-healing because they are connected - or in other words the reiki is to assist with this healing journey. A guide I could hear but not see seemed to approve of me connecting the two as well as Ganesha.

Ganesha has been calling to me for a long time. I first noticed his call a few years ago, but the last few months I have felt his call strengthen. He has been appearing all over in the physical world for me - in jewelry, tapestries, the Internet, etc. He just has been popping up quite a bit. I knew this was one of his ways of reaching out to me. Now I know why. This self-healing involves a massive letting go and overcoming obstacles. I know he is pertinent to my success in this journey.

Om Hreeng Greeng Hreeng

Journey With Sekhmet

Today I have an appointment to do a reading for a very close friend of mine. Sometimes I do a shamanic journey ahead of time to be prepared for readings. I felt the need to journey today and I had a very interesting experience. I am sharing that journey with you all. I left out the messages for my friend as those are personal and for her only. 

I began my journey the same way I always do, by shielding and calling my guides to me. My eagle flew down and landed on my shoulder. A woman in white with blonde hair approached me. I did my test on her to confirm she is a divine being of light. I started dancing in a circle channeling pure pink loving light out of my hands to her. The pink light engulfed her and her flesh vaporized away leaving a black skeleton behind. This confirmed for me that she was an imposter and I let the light take her away. I kept dancing in a circle spreading the light as a protective circle around me. A dark skinned woman with a very strong stance stepped through the circle and walked up to me. She was wearing robe-like-clothing colored in red, purple, black, orange, with blue ornamental beads. She carried a tall staff. I immediately recognized her energy as Sekhmet. She passed my test to make sure she was who she was appearing as. She took my hand and placed it on her shoulder. Then she turned around and slowly started walking, leading me. She led me to the upper world through space. She took me to an ocean blue planet that looked to be entirely covered in water. It was glowing, shimmering and very beautiful. We just floated there in space above the planet a moment. I think she was letting me see it, so I could remember this planet. She took me to the planet's core in a great rush of energy where there was a giant chamber. Beings of light sat in a circle around the edge of the chamber. The floor was stone and the way they were seated around the chamber was like an amphitheater. They were bright light of all different colors. They were so bright I could not see facial details or the shapes of their bodies very well. A bright yellow being in the center approached me and began to speak. The being gave me personal messages for the person I was journeying about. The longer I was there, the more light headed and out of body I began to feel. Toward the end the beings voice became fainter, sounding like it was echoing. They said I had been there too long and the connection to my body was becoming to weak. They told me I needed to leave soon. I called out to Sekhmet and she took my hand but the feeling of being out of body grew more intense and I could no longer stand on my own. I asked Sekhmet to take me home and she picked me up in her arms and started running. I remember looking up at her face and could feel her fire. It felt like a lion galloping, carrying me gently. But I could feel her intensity and determination to return me safely. I saw the head of a lion over her human head, like an aura. It roared fiercely. She got me back quickly and safely.

I have journeyed to other planets before, but only a few times. I love journeying to space and meeting new beings in different planes. Most aliens I have communicated with and encountered are peaceful and loving beings. Most of them are trying to help us in one way or another. This was the first time Sekhmet led me in a journey. I have been calling on her and paying more homage to her lately. I feel that working with her at this time is pertinent to my development and growth. I absolutely love her so much. She has a powerful energy, but there is always love in her core. I intend to do more journeying more often. I have bounced back and forth in my spirit work and I know I must keep it a regular part of my life. I am working on that. That is what is so great about this kind of work, it is a constant work in progress on ourselves and the world.

A Witch Spirit Guide

Good day all of you lovely souls. Lately I have been having strange experiences and seem to have been struggling more so than usual. I am used to struggling with depression in phases. It has always been a normal part of me and my life. But lately it has felt different, almost as if it is on a different frequency. A sense of hopelessness has been stronger, but my intuition has been kicking on a lot more and telling me to do certain things to overcome or heal it. I also have been having repeatedly stranger dreams than normal. I also wake up from some of these dreams with a sense that an intense healing or spiritual work occurred during my dream state. 

This morning when I woke up, the first thing that came to my groggy mind was that I needed to journey and meditate. I normally don't journey or meditate until I have fully woken up, which sometimes takes a couple hours. So, I made my cup of coffee and let the dog out. I put on drumming music and put on my headphones. I lied down, put on my blindfold and began my normal clearing and shielding process. My shaman stone spoke and wanted to be a part of it, so I placed it on my chest.

I ended up just enjoying the energy and talking with some of my guides. I saw one of my warrior guides that I had not spoken to in a long time. I gave flowing pink energy of pure love to my guides and thanked them for all that they do for me. I also hugged every single one of them. My healer guides were working on me throughout this. A woman in a white dress with very long blonde hair walked up to me and sat beside me. She looked familiar but I don't think I have encountered her before. She introduced herself as "Ifrit" or "Ifruit." I could not get a clear spelling of the name, but she said after I research her name it will make sense to me. It feels that her name is very important. I thought it was Nordic, but I am not sure. She was very calming and loving. She told me she is my witch guide. She said I am coming along in reconnecting with that part of me. Now, a little background, witchcraft is still new to me. I received many messages over the past few years to connect to the divine feminine and work with the moon. It is only this year I came to realize that those messages meant learning about being a witch. 

I asked some questions that I have been meaning to ask my guides lately. She responded with that what I am going through right now is pain from my memories. She said that I am remembering memories and knowledge from some of my past lives. She said that is why I am waking up from strange dreams with knowledge I did not have before. This was spot on because I have woken up lately and gone straight to writing because words of chants and rituals were fresh in my mind that I never knew before. She said that with remembering this knowledge, I am also remembering the pain from those lives. She then showed me how some pains in life go straight into our souls and remain there, as a memory in our soul. She said it is pertinent I let these memories and memories of pain resurface for healing. She said a lot is coming to the surface right now for healing, not just from this life but from others as well. She impressed upon me that the most important thing I do at this time is heal myself, and do a lot of it. So, not only must I work on healing past pains from this life, but past pains from more than one other past life as well. 

This makes so much sense to me at this time. It coordinates with everything I have been feeling and experiencing. I want to be the best healer that I can be, and in order to do that I must continue healing myself. I have always known this. I accepted at the beginning of my awakening that self-healing is a constant process. It is a continuous part of our journey. Even if we heal everything from our past, new things will come into our lives or resurface that needs to be healed. 

Energy Storm ~ Don't Feel Hopeless

Lately there has been a heavy energy storm. A lot of people I know have been and are affected. It started before the blood moon. I think it is connected to the current retrogrades and the blood moon that occurred. If you have been feeling depressed, lazy, unmotivated, drained, lethargic, nauseous, stomach pains, headaches, weak, hopeless, or not feeling anything at all (bad or good emotions, just numb) then you may be affected too. I first noticed something was off when I learned there was going to be a super blood moon. Normally this kind of thing would excite me, and I would make plans to view and enjoy the energy. However, I just didn't care. I didn't even go outside once that night. Even seeing pictures of the blood moon, I just felt like "so what?" That is when I realized I hadn't been feeling anything energy-wise for a while. This was odd, because I'm normally super sensitive to energies. 

I didn't think too much about it. I figured I must just be going through another rest phase, which happens to me quite often. Then last week I had a horrible lucid dream that was like living in a horror movie. Once I had fully woken from it, I felt unnatural energy in my bedroom. I was incredibly uncomfortable and had goosebumps. I knew I had been under attack. This was the eye opener I needed. I knew something was amiss and started praying and asking for help from God, Goddess, my angels, and guides. It has been a week, but the past few days I felt I had been getting messages from the divine white beings of light.

Last night, I was inspired to take two of my crystals to bed with me and place them on the windowsill that lies directly above my pillow. So, I placed my rhodonite and peacock pyrite there with my other crystals I leave there from time to time. I slept heavily and deeply. This morning I woke up feeling healed, energized, and reconnected to divine in full. As soon as I started opening my eyes I felt instantly motivated to write and create my own spell today, my first spell for my book of shadows (which I have not created yet). I thought this was interesting because while I was falling asleep I was asking for guidance and help to clear and heal this heavy energy affecting everyone. Even as I started to lose myself to sleep's embrace, I thought I should do a ritual for the whole world dealing with this.

It is amazing, even when the darkness is launching a full-frontal worldwide attack, divine love and light still fights the good fight. So, if you have been suffering during this energy storm, do not give up. Do not think anything is wrong with you. There is still light at the end of tunnel. There is always hope, always. Once I have written and created the spell, I will perform it, the ritual and share it with you all. Sending love, light, and hope to all of you at this time.

Love,

Bear Raven

I'm Back!

After a long break, too long, I am back into doing my spiritual work regularly. This is not the first time I had taken a break. Sometimes life just kicks me in the gut and I need to take a step back. This is a normal cycle for me, and I have noticed it is normal for many other spiritualists as well. My breaks tend to be longer than I'd like. So, I am trying to heal and improve myself. Improving yourself is always constant work.

I am very grateful for the patience of my spirit guides, angels, friends, family, and clients. Without all of your support, I would not be where I am today. Gratitude is such an important part of being connected to the divine and to being healthy. Even gratitude of the smallest thing daily can shift your energies.

I have set a new goal for myself to do at least one spiritual work related thing a day. I just started this on Monday, but I can already feel a major shift occurring within myself. Advice my guides have given me in the past that I have ignored, I am now embracing. I am doing self healing that has been recommended to me by my guides and other spiritualists. If I don't continue to improve myself and my connection to God and the Universe, how can I fulfill my divine purpose? I know I will get there with love and patience. These are the two most important tools when working with yourself.

Anyway, I wanted to share my new sense of direction and also let all of you beautiful souls know I am actively doing spiritual work and am available. If you feel drawn to me for divine guidance, messages, or healing please contact me. I am working for donations at this time. I feel helping people is more important than me earning money. However, I do have bills to pay just like everyone else. If I was able to work for free, I would. All I ask for is some energy in exchange for the energy and time I devote to you, and money is a form of energy.

I wish you all a beautiful week full of love and light.

Unexpected Journey and a Fairy

I was doing my daily meditation a little bit ago and my Rhino appeared to me instantly.  He wanted to take me on a journey and I was not expecting to do that today.  He told me to merge with him, and so I did.  I felt very comfortable in his form.  It felt good being large and heavy, sturdy.  It felt like it was a good thing (and usually when we feel large and heavy, we feel fat and negative emotions associated with being fat).  Our bodies became one and we went running.  He leaped into the cave entrance I use for journeying and we continued running.  I recognized fluorescent glowing lights along the cave walls.  Soon, there was a pool ahead with a small island in the center.  There was a woman sitting on the island in formal wear and she was just chilling out there.  I have seen this before.  The woman nodded politely to me as we walked past.  I asked my Rhino why she was there, or what it meant.  He told me that today was not the right time for that.  Then he broke into a run again.  We came to an edge of a cliff with a ladder leading down.  He told me to take us down.  Even though we were merged and I was as the Rhino, it only took a thought from me to have my human body back and walk us down the ladder.  This time, my Rhino was within my body.  When we got to the bottom, we transformed back into the Rhino form.  In only a few steps we approached a large opening that opened into a huge beautiful forest.  I slowly emerged from his body and was my own again. We walked slowly and I kept one hand on his side.  I have been to this forest before.

I asked him ,"Why are we here?"

I don't remember his exact response, but it was something along the lines of "wait and see."

It started to thunder and rain heavily.  I asked him if this was happening because I was listening to a thunderstorm track for my meditation.

He chuckled and said, "No, it is because you wanted rain and you need its healing."

This made me smile as earlier I had prayed for rain because I need its healing power.  I held my arms to the sky and enjoyed the fat droplets hitting my skin.  I fell on my back to the forest floor and smelled the wet soil.  I rolled around, feeling the soil, rain, and plants.  I laid on my back staring up at the cloud filled sky with the towering trees above.  An insect crawled on my hand and slowly up my arm.  I smiled at it and remained still, listening to the forest.  As I sat up, the ground shook and an enormous praying mantis walked by.  It was so large it was bigger than most buildings.  I looked up amazed at the underside of its belly.  It disappeared through the trees and started to shrink.  It shrunk to a normal size for a praying mantis and flew to me.  It landed on my left arm and crawled up to sit on my shoulder.  It started whispering in my ear.

The praying mantis I discovered is another animal totem for me.  She started explaining why.  Now, I have not read anything on praying mantis animal totems.  This all came from her.  She told me that I need to be sure to camouflage myself and then congratulated me on doing so regularly.  She encouraged me to spend more time around and among plants, respecting their gift of life, food, and shelter.  What she told me next surprised me, but made total sense.  She said that I take what I need from my mates and move on.  She said I devour what I need and then move on to the next to find what I need.  As she explained this she showed me how Praying Mantis females devour the heads of their mates after mating.  She then told me I do this because my true mate is not here on this Earth to be with me, that I am here to help others.  And so I find temporary mates to fill my needs.  Considering the history of my love life, this made complete sense.

Rhino then prompted me to walk.  We walked together and I saw a lake with a small island on it.  My higher self was sitting there and she smiled when she saw me.  The swan floating on the lake at her side swam to in front of the island and there were several other swans suddenly.  She stepped on the backs of the swans and came to me, giving me a loving hug.  She took my hand and started walking back across the swans to the island.  I started to protest, not wanting to hurt the swans, but when I looked down before I stepped, I noticed that the swans were now stone and turned facing the island now.  Whereas before, the swans were facing me.  I was mystified and with my higher self's encouragement, stepped across the backs of the stone swans to the little island.  She took my hands and we sat together on the mossy grass.  I started to ask about the swans and she just laughed and then told me that this was a magical forest.  The island started to move as I heard a loud groaning animal noise.  The island rose higher and higher and I saw that it was actually the head of an animal!  It had a very long neck and its skin was green and turquoise in color.  When my eyes saw the body rise from the forest floor which was part water and part soil, my mouth dropped open.  It was a Plesiosaur.  I started to ask my higher self what his name was, but as soon as I said him, she corrected me and said she.  I was so enthralled that it was a female that I lost interest in her name.

For those of you unfamiliar with the term, it is an herbivore water dinosaur.  https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Plesiosauria

The head rose almost above the forest canopy, hovering just under it.  My higher self then told me that the reason I had seen the Bear Lake monster and felt such a connection to it, was because it was one of my totems.  I was not expecting this, but it rang true and made sense.  I was in awe and filled with joy.  My higher self then took the time to tell me that I am on the right path, that I need to remain positive and push my website.  She encouraged me to keep going and that I pulled the "You are on the right path" card yesterday because it is true.  Then a bright light appeared from the sky and shone on me.  A hand from the light handed me a pink square envelope that opened from four folds.  Inside the envelope was a large amount of cash.  I held it to my heart and poured forth my gratitude and love.  I tucked the envelope into a pocket under my arm.  Then my higher self took my hand and placed a small ball of white light in my palm.  I could make out little wings and noticed arms and legs, almost invisible in the bright light.  It was a fairy.  She told me to keep seeking the fairy realms.  She told me that when I was a child I conversed with the fairies almost every day and that I was starting to remember.  She said that it is time I start seeking them out so that I may converse with them on a daily basis once again.  She told me the fairy in my palm was a companion of mine when I was a child and I was now ready to have her as a companion again.  I asked the fairy her name.  Her name is Oona, Loona or Lunia.  She said I could call her any of those.  I was skeptical as that is a fairy name in some movies.  My higher self tut-tutted me and said that just because it was in a movie does not mean it was not true or real.  Oona asked me if I believed in faeries.  I told her why yes of course I do!  She seemed pleased by this because Oona made a funny face at me and made me laugh.  The Plesiosaur then began lowered back down to the forest floor and water.  The island settled and I knew it was time to go.  I thanked everyone with love in my heart.  I stepped off the stone swans and met my Rhino again.  We merged and ran together, heading back the way we came.  Soon, my Rhino was leaping us through the cave entrance into a bright white light and then I opened my eyes and was back in my office.

Meeting a fairy companion surprised me but I welcome her!  I just started reading Enchantment of the Fairie Realm by Ted Andrews last night.  I do not believe in coincidences.  I look forward to opening up to these realms and experiences!  I have always believed in faeries!

I was not planning to journey today, so this was an unexpected surprise.  I just had to journal they experience before I forgot any details.  I just love how my guides step up when the time is right!  I hope everyone has a beautiful day!
~*Namaste*~
Bear Raven

My First Encounter with Archangel Kamiel

I had just an okay day today.  I did not do my usual meditation and Reiki early in the day like I usually do. I spent a good amount of my day applying for scholarships and orientating myself on my university's website.  For those of you who do not know, I am starting school in September for my degree in Psychology.  =^)

My husband had a bad day at work and was very moody when he got home.  He remained grumpy even when he went to bed.  Being a strong empath, this made me depressed and moody too.  I felt my gut telling me that I needed to shield because I was feeling his emotions, not my own.  In the past, I have ignored my gut and just stayed in bed and read or played games until I fell asleep.  After all the progress I have been making and how positive I have been, I really did not want to do that tonight.  So, I took a shower and then came into my office to meditate and do Reiki on myself.

Boy, am I sure glad I did!  I grabbed my rose quartz and placed it on my chest over my heart before I started.  After I meditated, balanced and cleared my chakras, I started shielding myself.  As I started, a new person I did not recognize appeared and began putting up my shields for me.  He had a huge nose and long super curly hair, like permed!  His hair was light brown to gold in color.  It could have been brown with gold highlights even.  His face was like a combination of Gene Wilder's and Dustin Hoffman's, but unique.  He was wearing a court jester outfit minus the hat.  The garb was red and yellow in color.    He was very animated.  Almost immediately I began to ask who he was, but before I could finish my question I felt and heard "Archangel Kamiel."  He also smiled at me at the same time.  I felt a soft loving warmth spread over me.  For the past few weeks, maybe even the last month, I have been calling on Archangel Kamiel almost daily to assist me in grounding, shielding, and healing sessions.

After he shielded me and surrounded me with love, he knelt down next to me to talk.  He confirmed that I was picking up my husband's emotions and that I need to make sure I shield every day before he gets home. He comforted me and told me some other things I needed to hear.  He said we were very old friends and while we talked it did feel like we have known each other a very long time.  His hands and arms were very animated as he talked. He stood up and slowly started to walk away.  I asked him to wait.  I asked him how I was doing.  He tilted his head with a coy smile and asked me what I thought.  I thought briefly and couldn't help but smile as I told him I thought I was doing amazing.  His smile broadened and he nodded knowingly.

He then said, "Precisely."

Then he did a funny dance and jump.  I laughed and asked why he was dressed in a court jester outfit.  He told me he thought I needed a good laugh.  This made me smile and I actually had a couple happy tears from the whole encounter.

He then said to me, "You know why you like that Doctor Who TV show so much?"

Surprised by his question, I asked, "Why?"

He then said, "Because the Doctor reminds you, well your subconscious, of me," and he smiled a huge cheesy smile.

I laughed again, but could feel the truth in his words with a warm and light feeling in my chest.  I stood up, walked over to him and opened my arms and asked if I could hug him.  He said yes of course I could hug him and said he was a hugger.  He seemed flustered I even asked, like I should already know.  He embraced me in one of the best bear hugs I have ever experienced.  He told me to go and spend the rest of my evening taking care of me.  He said if I wanted to heal others than by all means to go ahead and do so, but to do whatever I wanted and take care of myself because taking care of myself is very important.  He then left waving goodbye.  This was my first time meeting him in this life.  He told me he has known me a very long time and I have know him a very long time also, even though this was my first time meeting him in this life.  I am so grateful he came to me tonight and had a nice long talk with me.  I needed it.  Thank you Archangel Kamiel for helping me tonight and for always watching over me.  Love and light.  ~*Namaste*~