Short Meditation and Some Direction

Over the past couple of months I have been preparing for some serious self-healing work. No surprise there as self-healing is a never-ending journey. I wasn't aware I needed self-healing about certain issues I had buried until I meditated back in the beginning of December. Once I had the epiphany after much nudging and direction from my guides, I started gathering tools to set up an altar specifically dedicated to this self-healing as I knew it was going to take a long time, a month or longer.

The altar space is nearly completed and I meditated today just to re-center and balance myself. I had asked Ganesha and many other deities and ascended masters to assist me in clearing the space and myself before I meditated. In my meditation, Ganesha put his arm around me and told me I need to give myself reiki for 30 days and 30 nights. I looked at him with gratitude and understanding and asked, "So, you mean twice a day, once in the daytime and once at night?" He nodded and smiled at me approvingly before saying, "Yes." I saw the three candles I have specifically set aside for my self-healing journey and realized I am supposed to do the reiki at the same time I am doing this other self-healing because they are connected - or in other words the reiki is to assist with this healing journey. A guide I could hear but not see seemed to approve of me connecting the two as well as Ganesha.

Ganesha has been calling to me for a long time. I first noticed his call a few years ago, but the last few months I have felt his call strengthen. He has been appearing all over in the physical world for me - in jewelry, tapestries, the Internet, etc. He just has been popping up quite a bit. I knew this was one of his ways of reaching out to me. Now I know why. This self-healing involves a massive letting go and overcoming obstacles. I know he is pertinent to my success in this journey.

Om Hreeng Greeng Hreeng

Journey With Sekhmet

Today I have an appointment to do a reading for a very close friend of mine. Sometimes I do a shamanic journey ahead of time to be prepared for readings. I felt the need to journey today and I had a very interesting experience. I am sharing that journey with you all. I left out the messages for my friend as those are personal and for her only. 

I began my journey the same way I always do, by shielding and calling my guides to me. My eagle flew down and landed on my shoulder. A woman in white with blonde hair approached me. I did my test on her to confirm she is a divine being of light. I started dancing in a circle channeling pure pink loving light out of my hands to her. The pink light engulfed her and her flesh vaporized away leaving a black skeleton behind. This confirmed for me that she was an imposter and I let the light take her away. I kept dancing in a circle spreading the light as a protective circle around me. A dark skinned woman with a very strong stance stepped through the circle and walked up to me. She was wearing robe-like-clothing colored in red, purple, black, orange, with blue ornamental beads. She carried a tall staff. I immediately recognized her energy as Sekhmet. She passed my test to make sure she was who she was appearing as. She took my hand and placed it on her shoulder. Then she turned around and slowly started walking, leading me. She led me to the upper world through space. She took me to an ocean blue planet that looked to be entirely covered in water. It was glowing, shimmering and very beautiful. We just floated there in space above the planet a moment. I think she was letting me see it, so I could remember this planet. She took me to the planet's core in a great rush of energy where there was a giant chamber. Beings of light sat in a circle around the edge of the chamber. The floor was stone and the way they were seated around the chamber was like an amphitheater. They were bright light of all different colors. They were so bright I could not see facial details or the shapes of their bodies very well. A bright yellow being in the center approached me and began to speak. The being gave me personal messages for the person I was journeying about. The longer I was there, the more light headed and out of body I began to feel. Toward the end the beings voice became fainter, sounding like it was echoing. They said I had been there too long and the connection to my body was becoming to weak. They told me I needed to leave soon. I called out to Sekhmet and she took my hand but the feeling of being out of body grew more intense and I could no longer stand on my own. I asked Sekhmet to take me home and she picked me up in her arms and started running. I remember looking up at her face and could feel her fire. It felt like a lion galloping, carrying me gently. But I could feel her intensity and determination to return me safely. I saw the head of a lion over her human head, like an aura. It roared fiercely. She got me back quickly and safely.

I have journeyed to other planets before, but only a few times. I love journeying to space and meeting new beings in different planes. Most aliens I have communicated with and encountered are peaceful and loving beings. Most of them are trying to help us in one way or another. This was the first time Sekhmet led me in a journey. I have been calling on her and paying more homage to her lately. I feel that working with her at this time is pertinent to my development and growth. I absolutely love her so much. She has a powerful energy, but there is always love in her core. I intend to do more journeying more often. I have bounced back and forth in my spirit work and I know I must keep it a regular part of my life. I am working on that. That is what is so great about this kind of work, it is a constant work in progress on ourselves and the world.

A Witch Spirit Guide

Good day all of you lovely souls. Lately I have been having strange experiences and seem to have been struggling more so than usual. I am used to struggling with depression in phases. It has always been a normal part of me and my life. But lately it has felt different, almost as if it is on a different frequency. A sense of hopelessness has been stronger, but my intuition has been kicking on a lot more and telling me to do certain things to overcome or heal it. I also have been having repeatedly stranger dreams than normal. I also wake up from some of these dreams with a sense that an intense healing or spiritual work occurred during my dream state. 

This morning when I woke up, the first thing that came to my groggy mind was that I needed to journey and meditate. I normally don't journey or meditate until I have fully woken up, which sometimes takes a couple hours. So, I made my cup of coffee and let the dog out. I put on drumming music and put on my headphones. I lied down, put on my blindfold and began my normal clearing and shielding process. My shaman stone spoke and wanted to be a part of it, so I placed it on my chest.

I ended up just enjoying the energy and talking with some of my guides. I saw one of my warrior guides that I had not spoken to in a long time. I gave flowing pink energy of pure love to my guides and thanked them for all that they do for me. I also hugged every single one of them. My healer guides were working on me throughout this. A woman in a white dress with very long blonde hair walked up to me and sat beside me. She looked familiar but I don't think I have encountered her before. She introduced herself as "Ifrit" or "Ifruit." I could not get a clear spelling of the name, but she said after I research her name it will make sense to me. It feels that her name is very important. I thought it was Nordic, but I am not sure. She was very calming and loving. She told me she is my witch guide. She said I am coming along in reconnecting with that part of me. Now, a little background, witchcraft is still new to me. I received many messages over the past few years to connect to the divine feminine and work with the moon. It is only this year I came to realize that those messages meant learning about being a witch. 

I asked some questions that I have been meaning to ask my guides lately. She responded with that what I am going through right now is pain from my memories. She said that I am remembering memories and knowledge from some of my past lives. She said that is why I am waking up from strange dreams with knowledge I did not have before. This was spot on because I have woken up lately and gone straight to writing because words of chants and rituals were fresh in my mind that I never knew before. She said that with remembering this knowledge, I am also remembering the pain from those lives. She then showed me how some pains in life go straight into our souls and remain there, as a memory in our soul. She said it is pertinent I let these memories and memories of pain resurface for healing. She said a lot is coming to the surface right now for healing, not just from this life but from others as well. She impressed upon me that the most important thing I do at this time is heal myself, and do a lot of it. So, not only must I work on healing past pains from this life, but past pains from more than one other past life as well. 

This makes so much sense to me at this time. It coordinates with everything I have been feeling and experiencing. I want to be the best healer that I can be, and in order to do that I must continue healing myself. I have always known this. I accepted at the beginning of my awakening that self-healing is a constant process. It is a continuous part of our journey. Even if we heal everything from our past, new things will come into our lives or resurface that needs to be healed. 

Energy Storm ~ Don't Feel Hopeless

Lately there has been a heavy energy storm. A lot of people I know have been and are affected. It started before the blood moon. I think it is connected to the current retrogrades and the blood moon that occurred. If you have been feeling depressed, lazy, unmotivated, drained, lethargic, nauseous, stomach pains, headaches, weak, hopeless, or not feeling anything at all (bad or good emotions, just numb) then you may be affected too. I first noticed something was off when I learned there was going to be a super blood moon. Normally this kind of thing would excite me, and I would make plans to view and enjoy the energy. However, I just didn't care. I didn't even go outside once that night. Even seeing pictures of the blood moon, I just felt like "so what?" That is when I realized I hadn't been feeling anything energy-wise for a while. This was odd, because I'm normally super sensitive to energies. 

I didn't think too much about it. I figured I must just be going through another rest phase, which happens to me quite often. Then last week I had a horrible lucid dream that was like living in a horror movie. Once I had fully woken from it, I felt unnatural energy in my bedroom. I was incredibly uncomfortable and had goosebumps. I knew I had been under attack. This was the eye opener I needed. I knew something was amiss and started praying and asking for help from God, Goddess, my angels, and guides. It has been a week, but the past few days I felt I had been getting messages from the divine white beings of light.

Last night, I was inspired to take two of my crystals to bed with me and place them on the windowsill that lies directly above my pillow. So, I placed my rhodonite and peacock pyrite there with my other crystals I leave there from time to time. I slept heavily and deeply. This morning I woke up feeling healed, energized, and reconnected to divine in full. As soon as I started opening my eyes I felt instantly motivated to write and create my own spell today, my first spell for my book of shadows (which I have not created yet). I thought this was interesting because while I was falling asleep I was asking for guidance and help to clear and heal this heavy energy affecting everyone. Even as I started to lose myself to sleep's embrace, I thought I should do a ritual for the whole world dealing with this.

It is amazing, even when the darkness is launching a full-frontal worldwide attack, divine love and light still fights the good fight. So, if you have been suffering during this energy storm, do not give up. Do not think anything is wrong with you. There is still light at the end of tunnel. There is always hope, always. Once I have written and created the spell, I will perform it, the ritual and share it with you all. Sending love, light, and hope to all of you at this time.

Love,

Bear Raven

I'm Back!

After a long break, too long, I am back into doing my spiritual work regularly. This is not the first time I had taken a break. Sometimes life just kicks me in the gut and I need to take a step back. This is a normal cycle for me, and I have noticed it is normal for many other spiritualists as well. My breaks tend to be longer than I'd like. So, I am trying to heal and improve myself. Improving yourself is always constant work.

I am very grateful for the patience of my spirit guides, angels, friends, family, and clients. Without all of your support, I would not be where I am today. Gratitude is such an important part of being connected to the divine and to being healthy. Even gratitude of the smallest thing daily can shift your energies.

I have set a new goal for myself to do at least one spiritual work related thing a day. I just started this on Monday, but I can already feel a major shift occurring within myself. Advice my guides have given me in the past that I have ignored, I am now embracing. I am doing self healing that has been recommended to me by my guides and other spiritualists. If I don't continue to improve myself and my connection to God and the Universe, how can I fulfill my divine purpose? I know I will get there with love and patience. These are the two most important tools when working with yourself.

Anyway, I wanted to share my new sense of direction and also let all of you beautiful souls know I am actively doing spiritual work and am available. If you feel drawn to me for divine guidance, messages, or healing please contact me. I am working for donations at this time. I feel helping people is more important than me earning money. However, I do have bills to pay just like everyone else. If I was able to work for free, I would. All I ask for is some energy in exchange for the energy and time I devote to you, and money is a form of energy.

I wish you all a beautiful week full of love and light.

Unexpected Journey and a Fairy

I was doing my daily meditation a little bit ago and my Rhino appeared to me instantly.  He wanted to take me on a journey and I was not expecting to do that today.  He told me to merge with him, and so I did.  I felt very comfortable in his form.  It felt good being large and heavy, sturdy.  It felt like it was a good thing (and usually when we feel large and heavy, we feel fat and negative emotions associated with being fat).  Our bodies became one and we went running.  He leaped into the cave entrance I use for journeying and we continued running.  I recognized fluorescent glowing lights along the cave walls.  Soon, there was a pool ahead with a small island in the center.  There was a woman sitting on the island in formal wear and she was just chilling out there.  I have seen this before.  The woman nodded politely to me as we walked past.  I asked my Rhino why she was there, or what it meant.  He told me that today was not the right time for that.  Then he broke into a run again.  We came to an edge of a cliff with a ladder leading down.  He told me to take us down.  Even though we were merged and I was as the Rhino, it only took a thought from me to have my human body back and walk us down the ladder.  This time, my Rhino was within my body.  When we got to the bottom, we transformed back into the Rhino form.  In only a few steps we approached a large opening that opened into a huge beautiful forest.  I slowly emerged from his body and was my own again. We walked slowly and I kept one hand on his side.  I have been to this forest before.

I asked him ,"Why are we here?"

I don't remember his exact response, but it was something along the lines of "wait and see."

It started to thunder and rain heavily.  I asked him if this was happening because I was listening to a thunderstorm track for my meditation.

He chuckled and said, "No, it is because you wanted rain and you need its healing."

This made me smile as earlier I had prayed for rain because I need its healing power.  I held my arms to the sky and enjoyed the fat droplets hitting my skin.  I fell on my back to the forest floor and smelled the wet soil.  I rolled around, feeling the soil, rain, and plants.  I laid on my back staring up at the cloud filled sky with the towering trees above.  An insect crawled on my hand and slowly up my arm.  I smiled at it and remained still, listening to the forest.  As I sat up, the ground shook and an enormous praying mantis walked by.  It was so large it was bigger than most buildings.  I looked up amazed at the underside of its belly.  It disappeared through the trees and started to shrink.  It shrunk to a normal size for a praying mantis and flew to me.  It landed on my left arm and crawled up to sit on my shoulder.  It started whispering in my ear.

The praying mantis I discovered is another animal totem for me.  She started explaining why.  Now, I have not read anything on praying mantis animal totems.  This all came from her.  She told me that I need to be sure to camouflage myself and then congratulated me on doing so regularly.  She encouraged me to spend more time around and among plants, respecting their gift of life, food, and shelter.  What she told me next surprised me, but made total sense.  She said that I take what I need from my mates and move on.  She said I devour what I need and then move on to the next to find what I need.  As she explained this she showed me how Praying Mantis females devour the heads of their mates after mating.  She then told me I do this because my true mate is not here on this Earth to be with me, that I am here to help others.  And so I find temporary mates to fill my needs.  Considering the history of my love life, this made complete sense.

Rhino then prompted me to walk.  We walked together and I saw a lake with a small island on it.  My higher self was sitting there and she smiled when she saw me.  The swan floating on the lake at her side swam to in front of the island and there were several other swans suddenly.  She stepped on the backs of the swans and came to me, giving me a loving hug.  She took my hand and started walking back across the swans to the island.  I started to protest, not wanting to hurt the swans, but when I looked down before I stepped, I noticed that the swans were now stone and turned facing the island now.  Whereas before, the swans were facing me.  I was mystified and with my higher self's encouragement, stepped across the backs of the stone swans to the little island.  She took my hands and we sat together on the mossy grass.  I started to ask about the swans and she just laughed and then told me that this was a magical forest.  The island started to move as I heard a loud groaning animal noise.  The island rose higher and higher and I saw that it was actually the head of an animal!  It had a very long neck and its skin was green and turquoise in color.  When my eyes saw the body rise from the forest floor which was part water and part soil, my mouth dropped open.  It was a Plesiosaur.  I started to ask my higher self what his name was, but as soon as I said him, she corrected me and said she.  I was so enthralled that it was a female that I lost interest in her name.

For those of you unfamiliar with the term, it is an herbivore water dinosaur.  https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Plesiosauria

The head rose almost above the forest canopy, hovering just under it.  My higher self then told me that the reason I had seen the Bear Lake monster and felt such a connection to it, was because it was one of my totems.  I was not expecting this, but it rang true and made sense.  I was in awe and filled with joy.  My higher self then took the time to tell me that I am on the right path, that I need to remain positive and push my website.  She encouraged me to keep going and that I pulled the "You are on the right path" card yesterday because it is true.  Then a bright light appeared from the sky and shone on me.  A hand from the light handed me a pink square envelope that opened from four folds.  Inside the envelope was a large amount of cash.  I held it to my heart and poured forth my gratitude and love.  I tucked the envelope into a pocket under my arm.  Then my higher self took my hand and placed a small ball of white light in my palm.  I could make out little wings and noticed arms and legs, almost invisible in the bright light.  It was a fairy.  She told me to keep seeking the fairy realms.  She told me that when I was a child I conversed with the fairies almost every day and that I was starting to remember.  She said that it is time I start seeking them out so that I may converse with them on a daily basis once again.  She told me the fairy in my palm was a companion of mine when I was a child and I was now ready to have her as a companion again.  I asked the fairy her name.  Her name is Oona, Loona or Lunia.  She said I could call her any of those.  I was skeptical as that is a fairy name in some movies.  My higher self tut-tutted me and said that just because it was in a movie does not mean it was not true or real.  Oona asked me if I believed in faeries.  I told her why yes of course I do!  She seemed pleased by this because Oona made a funny face at me and made me laugh.  The Plesiosaur then began lowered back down to the forest floor and water.  The island settled and I knew it was time to go.  I thanked everyone with love in my heart.  I stepped off the stone swans and met my Rhino again.  We merged and ran together, heading back the way we came.  Soon, my Rhino was leaping us through the cave entrance into a bright white light and then I opened my eyes and was back in my office.

Meeting a fairy companion surprised me but I welcome her!  I just started reading Enchantment of the Fairie Realm by Ted Andrews last night.  I do not believe in coincidences.  I look forward to opening up to these realms and experiences!  I have always believed in faeries!

I was not planning to journey today, so this was an unexpected surprise.  I just had to journal they experience before I forgot any details.  I just love how my guides step up when the time is right!  I hope everyone has a beautiful day!
~*Namaste*~
Bear Raven

My First Encounter with Archangel Kamiel

I had just an okay day today.  I did not do my usual meditation and Reiki early in the day like I usually do. I spent a good amount of my day applying for scholarships and orientating myself on my university's website.  For those of you who do not know, I am starting school in September for my degree in Psychology.  =^)

My husband had a bad day at work and was very moody when he got home.  He remained grumpy even when he went to bed.  Being a strong empath, this made me depressed and moody too.  I felt my gut telling me that I needed to shield because I was feeling his emotions, not my own.  In the past, I have ignored my gut and just stayed in bed and read or played games until I fell asleep.  After all the progress I have been making and how positive I have been, I really did not want to do that tonight.  So, I took a shower and then came into my office to meditate and do Reiki on myself.

Boy, am I sure glad I did!  I grabbed my rose quartz and placed it on my chest over my heart before I started.  After I meditated, balanced and cleared my chakras, I started shielding myself.  As I started, a new person I did not recognize appeared and began putting up my shields for me.  He had a huge nose and long super curly hair, like permed!  His hair was light brown to gold in color.  It could have been brown with gold highlights even.  His face was like a combination of Gene Wilder's and Dustin Hoffman's, but unique.  He was wearing a court jester outfit minus the hat.  The garb was red and yellow in color.    He was very animated.  Almost immediately I began to ask who he was, but before I could finish my question I felt and heard "Archangel Kamiel."  He also smiled at me at the same time.  I felt a soft loving warmth spread over me.  For the past few weeks, maybe even the last month, I have been calling on Archangel Kamiel almost daily to assist me in grounding, shielding, and healing sessions.

After he shielded me and surrounded me with love, he knelt down next to me to talk.  He confirmed that I was picking up my husband's emotions and that I need to make sure I shield every day before he gets home. He comforted me and told me some other things I needed to hear.  He said we were very old friends and while we talked it did feel like we have known each other a very long time.  His hands and arms were very animated as he talked. He stood up and slowly started to walk away.  I asked him to wait.  I asked him how I was doing.  He tilted his head with a coy smile and asked me what I thought.  I thought briefly and couldn't help but smile as I told him I thought I was doing amazing.  His smile broadened and he nodded knowingly.

He then said, "Precisely."

Then he did a funny dance and jump.  I laughed and asked why he was dressed in a court jester outfit.  He told me he thought I needed a good laugh.  This made me smile and I actually had a couple happy tears from the whole encounter.

He then said to me, "You know why you like that Doctor Who TV show so much?"

Surprised by his question, I asked, "Why?"

He then said, "Because the Doctor reminds you, well your subconscious, of me," and he smiled a huge cheesy smile.

I laughed again, but could feel the truth in his words with a warm and light feeling in my chest.  I stood up, walked over to him and opened my arms and asked if I could hug him.  He said yes of course I could hug him and said he was a hugger.  He seemed flustered I even asked, like I should already know.  He embraced me in one of the best bear hugs I have ever experienced.  He told me to go and spend the rest of my evening taking care of me.  He said if I wanted to heal others than by all means to go ahead and do so, but to do whatever I wanted and take care of myself because taking care of myself is very important.  He then left waving goodbye.  This was my first time meeting him in this life.  He told me he has known me a very long time and I have know him a very long time also, even though this was my first time meeting him in this life.  I am so grateful he came to me tonight and had a nice long talk with me.  I needed it.  Thank you Archangel Kamiel for helping me tonight and for always watching over me.  Love and light.  ~*Namaste*~

Drums of the Wolf and Prayer Braid Meditation

I am usually in bed getting ready to fall asleep around this time.  I just took a cool shower and took out my contact lenses and got into bed.  As I picked up my phone to do some reading before sleep time, I realized that I needed to write down the incredible experience and messages I received tonight.  So, here I am.  =^)

Today has been an amazing day overall.  I got to see my dear friend, Krissy, and we went to the Temple of Sekhmet together.  She loved it, just as I knew she would.  As we left the guest trailer to go sit in the temple, it down-poured on us!  It was cloudy all day, but had only rained a little early in the morning.  We both loved the cleansing rain as it danced on our skin and soaked our clothes.  There was gentle thunder and it felt almost as if the Goddesses were saying "Welcome!"  We had a lovely and powerful time there.

Later, we attended a class and meditation that one of my other soul sisters was hosting.  It was called "Drums of the Wolf Meditation."  I have been wanting to go to this for a few months now.  For some reason I felt I must go to it with Krissy and the last couple times that it was held, we just were not able to go.  We finally were able to go tonight and I am glad tonight was our first.  A very special guest also attended tonight's meditation.  It was the artist of The Animal Wisdom Deck and of my favorite spiritual picture, Rhino.  For those of you who don't know, Rhino is one of my power animals and very important to me right now in my spiritual journey.  Before the class, I took her hand and looked her in the eyes and expressed to her the meaning of her artwork and how this single painting/drawing of Rhino has changed my life, touched my soul and meant so much to me.  She was gracious, sweet and very glad to hear my story.  Her energy is so warm and loving!  It was an honor to meet her and be in her presence.  What an example to learn from.

Now the main reason I wanted to write this at all tonight was the journey I had during this class.  I wanted to write it all down before I forgot anything!  The meditation started with shamanic drumming.  I did not set an intent or question for my journey.  I asked my guides to lead me wherever they felt I needed to go.  After I closed my eyes and listened to the drumming, I instantly saw the cave entrance I have used before for journeying.  I was pleasantly surprised to see my Rhino standing there waiting for me.  I have never journeyed with my Rhino before, so I was very happy and excited!

My Rhino nuzzled my shoulder and told me to climb on its back.  I did so and it began walking down into the cave.  I had to lay down on its back with my arms holding onto its neck so that I would not bump into the cave ceiling.  Slowly and gradually my Rhino walked down deeper into the cave.  After a short while, I saw a wolf ahead.  It looked at my Rhino and then turned and ran.  My Rhino began to run as well, following the wolf.  Before I knew it, the cave walls were flying by very fast as my Rhino ran faster and faster.  Soon the cave walls turned into stars and looking around I realized we were now traveling through astral.  My Rhino seemed to be running on a path that looked like rainbow glass. I could see galaxies, stars, and planets all around us.  I remember thinking, "Wow. We are going so fast."  I felt my Rhino thinking, "You think this is fast? Ha!  Watch this!"  and he took off even faster!  I was holding on for dear life.  I did not want to fall off!
To the right and becoming closer to us as my Rhino ran, was a large orange planet.  Rhino jumped and pounded its feet very hard and all at once on the planet, almost leaping off it back to the path.  The planet shook from my Rhino's mighty step.  As I watched the planet shake and tremble, I felt my Rhino think, "You too have the power the shake the universe."  The path turned in a big loop and we kept traveling.  The speed increased even more and then it looked like we were traveling through a wormhole.

All of a sudden we came to a stop and we were standing in a green grassy meadow.  I slid off Rhino's back as I took in my surroundings.  The sky was bright sky blue and rippling like water.  I could see the stars and galaxies through it as it was partially transparent, like a pool.  The grass was bright green, but trees in the distance were grey or dark brown with no leaves.  It definitely looked alien.  My Rhino casually lumbered slowly as it grabbed mouthfuls of grass and chewed leisurely.  I then felt my Rhino think, "Eat."  I squatted down and gently placed my hand on the earth.  I asked the planet, or land, if I may take from it.  In response, a hand made from the soil rose out of the ground offering me a bunch of grass and soil, and I felt it answer "eat."  I grabbed a handful of the grass and pulled it up, placing it soil first in my mouth.  I chewed and ate it grateful for it.  It tasted earthy, sweet and rich and I felt it fill me up warmly.  I then had a the sudden urge and desire to be naked, to be completely wild and embrace my femininity and be one with the earth.  As I felt this, my clothes fell away almost instantly.  Completely naked, I then rolled in mud and dirt until I was completely covered head to toe.  I held my hands to the sky and felt powerful and one with the land.  I was completely filled with love and strength.  My Rhino then sauntered off to a nearby pond, or lake, that was still as glass.  Rhino began to drink and I felt Rhino think, "drink."  I approached the water right next to Rhino and got down on all fours.  I looked at my reflection in the water as I began to ask for permission to drink from the water.  Again I heard, "drink."  And so I began to drink by placing my mouth to the water's surface just like Rhino.

The water was thick, refreshing, and sweet.  It too filled me to my core as the grass had.  I then saw myself transform into a Rhino.  My Rhino and I then started running around the meadow together happily.  I felt one with Rhino. I sensed we should head back and so I climbed back on Rhino's back, and once again I was human.  Almost instantaneously we returned to the cave and outside of the cave entrance.  I hugged my Rhino and expressed my love and gratitude to it.  I felt it return the love.  I started to give Rhino Reiki as my way of giving back and it stopped me.  Well, it didn't really stop me, but it interrupted me.  Rhino gave me its horn.  Where its horn had been looked like it had been sawed off.  The horn floated into my hands with sparkling light surrounding it from above.  I said, "This is your horn.  I cannot take your horn."  Rhino answered, "Eh, I can grow another."  It sounded so laid back and easy going about it.  I could not deny its gift.  I held the horn above my head, grateful and honoring its power.  Then I hugged the horn to my chest and pressed it into me.  The horn melded into my chest and become one with my body and soul.  I felt my heart chakra grow and glow brighter than ever.  I even saw the shade of green change in my heart chakra.  It became a brighter, more vibrant shade of green. I held Rhino's face and looked into its eye lovingly.  Rhino then said, "Now we are one.  We are one."  Rhino's words felt so true.  I felt it resonate with me deeply.  I knelt in front of Rhino and just held my hands on its two front feet. Rhino lied down and we just sat together peacefully.

I just listened to the beat of the drum and I started to hear Native voices chanting along.  Then my mink came running up to me and into my lap.  It looked up at me and I petted it lovingly.  I felt it think, "run with me," and it took off running.  So, I got up, turned into a mink and started running after her.  It was sort of a running game, a chase.  It was fun.  The beat of the drum shifted and pulled me back out of the meditative state.  I was blown away by the journey I had just taken.  I am still blown away!  We each shared what we experienced.  It was a beautiful circle to share with these other women.

We then picked our colored threads and started making our prayer braids.  I am so glad I learned how to do prayer braiding.  I released a lot of negative emotions from my past and felt a great healing occur from this.  I am going to make many more prayer braids.  The simple movement is very relaxing and really helped my mind go into a meditative state.  I look forward to healing, releasing, and bringing many more things into my life through prayer braids.

This whole day and night was wonderful and beautiful.  I am so grateful for all my soul sisters who bring love and change into my life.  Every single one of you are important to me!  I love you all with all my being.  Well, now I feel ready for bed!  Have a wonderful evening everyone!

~~~* I'd like to throw out a huge thank you and love to Krissy, Melissa, and Jada!*~~~

Love, Light, and Peace
~*Namaste*~
~ Bear Raven

Website & Special

I recently lowered all my prices on my website.  I mean, I really lowered them so that there is something for everyone!  Also, I have a summer special going and it ends once August is over!  The special is buy one get one free.  So, you can buy a reading and get another reading or healing for free.  Buy a healing and get a reading or another healing free.  You can do any combination you want.  Only thing is the free one has to be equal or lesser value than the one you purchase!  I have plenty of time and so if you order I will do your reading within 24 hours.  I will probably be able to do a turn around the same day.  If you have any questions or are interested in a service you don't see on my website, just email me and ask!  I am here to help you any way I can!

My website is bearraven.weebly.com

and my email is bear_raven@divinepathways.com

Have a blessed evening everyone!

~*Namaste*~
Bear Raven

Continuing Self Healing

I have been receiving messages and guidance from my guides and angels to continue my self healing.  I am learning that there is never an end to self healing.  It must be constant, just as a constant need to improve ourselves.  I am adamant about continuing my journey to help people.  It truly feels right to me to heal myself so that I may be a clearer channel for divine energy to heal others.  I am so grateful for the opportunity to learn reiki and the ability to use it to help others.

Yesterday a friend took me to the temple of Sekhmet that is close to our city.  It is actually about a thirty minute drive outside of town, but it is worth it. It is more like a sanctuary that is dedicated to all Goddesses, but it was built for and to honor Sekhmet.  It sits on a natural spring so there are huge lush tress and lots of desert plant life.  There is a small labyrinth, which I did not get the opportunity to walk yesterday.  I will have to walk it next time I visit.  The temple also rests on Native land which the founder purchased and deeded back to the Western Shoshone who originally inhabited the land.  As I walked the grounds and sat in the temple last night, I certainly felt the ancestors all around me.  As I sat and enjoyed the silence and peace in the temple, I heard a few notes of a wooden flute on the wind.  At that moment, my friend and I were both thinking about our shamanic drums and bringing them out for a drumming ceremony or journey.  It almost felt like approval from the ancestors of that land.

All my life I have struggled with connecting to my own feminine energy and connecting with other females.  I have always felt like "one of the guys."  We did a New Moon ceremony of making our own collages of how people perceive us and how we really are on the inside.  Only women are allowed at the New Moon ceremonies, but everyone is welcome any other time.  There were only four of us last night, including the Priestess.  However, I truly enjoyed the intimacy of the small group.  The other three women there have beautiful souls and I feel I connected to them on a deep level.  It had been a really long time since I had done anything creative like this and it proved to actually be quite self healing.  I am going to hang the collage in my spiritual room as it is inspiration for me.  I am looking forward to many more beautiful experiences out there.

I just finished my reiki meditation and self healing for today before I started this blog post.  I still have many things to self heal.  Every time I do healing on myself, I am filled with peace and love.  I hope every time I channel reiki for someone else that they too feel this wonderful feeling.  As I was laying down enjoying the flow of the energy, I briefly heard voices of a large crowd whispering around me.  I know it was the spirits who are waiting for my help.  I am glad they made themselves known this way to remind me that they are indeed there and waiting patiently.  I know I have a lot more work ahead of me, but I am so looking forward to it.  I find I am more excited about the journey itself rather then the destination.  I am so grateful for every day of my life and those in it and those who will become a part of it.  I would not be where I am today without my dear friends and family who support me 100% in my spiritual endeavors.  I will not list names, as I do not want to make anyone feel left out.  However, if you are reading this, more than likely you are one who has inspired or helped me along the way.  So, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.  I want to radiate love and light to all in the entire universe.  I am grateful for the opportunities that keep presenting themselves to me.  Thank you Heavenly Father and Mother Earth for all the blessings in my life.

Namaste
~Bear Raven~

Reiki Flush - 1st Session

Last night I spoke to my reiki teacher and told him about how I think I have some energy blocks.  He offered to do a flush healing on me.  This is what I experienced during that flush.  

As I was laying in bed while the session began, I could feel the reiki energy starting to work on me.  I felt a fire burning in my lower abdomen.  It only lasted for a couple minutes then faded.  I closed my eyes to try and sleep and I started to see a lot of things.  I saw my life rewind backwards very quickly through painful and traumatic situations I have had, including several break ups.  The “movie” slowed down when it reached my childhood in the Catalina house (the very first house I grew up in). 

Now, I have always known that the Catalina house was haunted.  I have also always known that some of the entities there were very evil.  I only remembered three or four experiences from that house my entire life.  What I saw during the session surprised me. 

I saw our old basement with 70’s brown and white carpet.  I saw the old mattress on the floor that my brothers and I used to play and wrestle on.  I saw it very clearly and vividly as if I was standing there as a child once again.  Standing right in front of the mattress was a shadow man.  I could see the shape and details of his body and face very clearly but he was all black, or covered completely in black.  He turned his head and looked at me then looked away.  He repeated this several times.  His movements were jerky, twitchy and unnatural.  It was like when a movie skips.  He was very creepy and I did not like the feeling he gave me.  Then I saw a flash and it was a different part of the basement, closer to the back sliding glass door I think.  I saw a huge monster with long sharp pointy teeth (almost like needles or long curved daggers).  It had red flesh with blue veins and looked wet, slimy.  Its eyes were large and out of proportion.  It was almost worm like with claws, talons.  It was growling, snarling and trying to bite me.  It was pure evil.  Both of these things, I have never remembered or recalled seeing before, ever. 

Now, my eldest brother had mentioned one story from that house to me, of him seeing something with a sharp pointed teeth evil grin.  That is the only experience he ever mentioned to me.  I felt the need to talk to my brother of what I had seen during the Meridian Flush session.  I texted him and asked him if he ever saw a shadow man in the Catalina house.  His response was “Yes, along with a lot of other really creepy stuff.”  He had never mentioned the shadow man or anything else other than the one experience to me my entire life.  As soon as I read his text, I got goose bumps.  I knew he had seen it too.  This was huge confirmation for me.  I am not surprised that experiences in that house or things I saw caused energy blocks for me.  Having my energy blocks flushed brought back some memories I did not know I had.  I also had very strange and interesting dreams last night.  I felt pains randomly throughout my body periodically also.  When I got up this morning, I felt like I had been hit by a freight train.  I know that the reiki did what it was supposed to and I am so grateful for it.  

Crossing Over

Well, good day all you beautiful people!  I have been busy working on my website which is now up.  If you are interested in a reading or healing from me, check it out!  =>

I had an interesting experience yesterday and wanted to share.  Firstly, I had listened to an hour long webinar that morning where a well known medium spoke.  He did an opening and closing meditation and spoke about what to do to open your medium abilities and such.  Now, I know I am a medium.  I just have not practiced very much and know it is one of my abilities I need to help expand and understand further.

I was in my kitchen refilling my glass with ice.   As I was putting ice in my glass, I saw a spirit walk through my sliding glass back door.  I paused and opened myself.  She was a cute little old lady.  I would estimate she was somewhere between 80-95 years old.  She was wearing a light pink, almost tan, skirt that was just below her knees, a button up blouse, a pearl necklace and earrings, tan shiny high heels, pantyhose, and she was wearing pink framed round glasses and carrying a purse that matched her shoes.  Her hair was all white and cut short, curled neatly and tightly to her head.  Her face was sweet and she had a peaceful essence.

I said, "Hello."

She responded, "Hello dear."

I then asked, "Why are you here?"

She slowly walked closer to me and she seemed rather sheepish (like when a stranger approaches you in a public place to ask directions), "Excuse me, I hope I'm not intruding but it felt safe here."

Upon hearing her words, I couldn't help but smile and felt loving warmth in my heart.  When I started to accept my gifts and knew I wanted to help people and spirits especially, I wanted to make my home a safe haven for spirits who were stuck here, or who needed my help.  I wanted them to have somewhere safe, warm, and loving to hang out at until I had learned how to help them.  I of course have set rules for the spirits  if they want to stay here in my home, but when I started seeing and sensing all the lost souls around, my heart broke for them.  This sweet old lady confirmed that I have established a temporary safe haven for spirits where they can feel love and safe until I can help them.

I asked her, "What's your name?"

She said, "Pearle."

I said, "I'm Darci.  Nice to meet you Pearle."

She smiled at me.

I asked my next question, "How long have you been here?"

She took a few steps even closer to me before saying, "Oh, not long.  I just arrived."

I was actually very surprised by this.  I had expected her to have been around for quite a while because I know there are a lot of spirits in my home waiting for my help.  I have not helped them yet because there is a Shamanic class I have been trying to save up to take that teaches how to help lost souls.  It is quite expensive so it is taking me a long time to save up for it.

I felt my intuition guiding me to keep talking with her, so I did.  I asked another question, "What do you want?"

She smiled warmly and folded her hands in front of her tummy, "I want to cross over into the light."

Now, I have never helped a spirit cross over before.  I have heard and seen how others do it, but I felt a strong sense that I needed to learn the shamanic way to do it.  I felt strongly that the shamanic way for it should be the only way I do it.  However, I  felt peaceful and calm and my intuition was telling me to try.

So, first I sent her a wave of green light, of love to test and see if she was a loving spirit.  When the wave hit her, she closed her eyes peacefully and reciprocated the love.  This confirmed that she meant me no harm and was not trying to trick me.

My intuition continued to guide me, and I felt like I should ask her to meld with me ( a method I learned in the webinar I listened to that morning).  I invited her to meld her mind with my mind and to channel through me.  Well, she did.  I started seeing flashes of her life.  I saw it like an old black and white movie with faded colors.  I saw her as a young beautiful woman in some sort of uniform.  I saw her dancing a lot at parties or events with girlfriends and occasionally a good looking man.  The men were in Navy uniforms.  I saw her wearing a poodle skirt and 50's outfit doing the Twist dance.  I also saw her in a very nice skirt suit and working in an office.  I saw her riding in an old large car, like a Cadillac or possibly a Rolls Royce.  She was older in the car, wrinkles on her face.  An old man was driving them up the coast of California.  They were holding hands on the seat.  The flashes were very fast and brief.  I felt her emotions.  She felt like she had lived a colorful, vibrant, fulfilling life.  She felt so peaceful.  Once the flashes stopped, I looked at her and smiled.

I said, "I have never helped a spirit cross over into the light before, but I am willing to try if that is what you want."

She nodded and said, "Yes, please."

I called upon my guides, angels and Archangel Michael, Archangel Raphael, and Archangel Gabriel to help me cross her over into the light.  I drew down bright white light from Heavenly Father (or Source) onto me and her.  I channeled the light through my heart chakra out my palms to her.  I completely filled and surrounded her with light.  A large beam of white light that looked like a worm hole flowed down onto her.  She was smiling and touched the light with her hands.  The light sparkled and I felt so much love around the whole room.  I saw a door open on the wall, bright white light shining through it.  Jesus stepped through the door and walked over to Pearle with open arms.  Her eyes slightly teared up as she saw him and she took his hand.  Holding hands, Jesus led her up the white light tunnel going up.  They disappeared into the sky with the light and they were gone.  The door Jesus had come through shut and the light disappeared.  I felt peaceful and filled with love.  I had just helped cross over a spirit into the light for the very first time.  It felt so natural and beautiful.

I will never forget that experience.  I still want to take the Shamanic class for crossing spirits over, but now I know I don't need it to actually help spirits.  Now, I need to pick an article of clothing, or piece of jewelry to wear when I am "working" so spirits will know when I am available to help them.  I don't want them pestering me when I am doing other things.  I have heard this is a good way to manage that.  I am grateful I have the ability to help spirits.  I love helping people, but I love helping spirits more.  I don't know why.  Maybe it is because fewer people can help them then people who can help other people.  Maybe it is just because it is part of my soul purpose.  Whatever the reason, I will keep doing so and helping all to the best of my ability.

Pearle, I hope you are happy and feel so much love where you are now.  I wish you the best as you continue your journey.

Love, Light, Peace
Bear Raven

Kundalini Reiki II Attunement

Last night I received my 2nd Kundalini Reiki attunement.  I felt the presence of all my guides and animal totems after I called them in.  It felt like I had an audience watching me.  There was a bubble of white light around me and my door keeper was keeping a crowd out like a bouncer.  It was strange because I could not see details of people in the crowd, but I do not think they were my guides.  All my guides and totems were inside the bubble with me.  As I waited for it to begin I felt such great love filling my heart chakra.  It just kept filling up more and more.  It felt good, and I felt so grateful that so many love me.  I could feel it start because it felt like my heart chakra opened and all the love poured out through the rest of my body.  I felt the energy in my palms and my crown chakra.  I felt tickling on my crown, arms and legs.  It could have been my guides letting me know they were with me or it could have been the energy coursing through me.  I just closed my eyes and enjoyed the loving energy.  After some time I started to see things.  I saw myself in a past life in Ireland ( I think it was Ireland, might have been Scotland.)  I was in a wood house preparing a poultice with small dried purple flowers and green leaves.  There was a large man laying on a table with a large gash in his side.  I pressed the dried herbs into the gash and held it there with both hands.  My hands were in reiki position and I was channeling energy through them into the man.  It was amazing.  I felt the emotions and thoughts of this woman.  I knew that if I held my hands and cleared my mind, that I could "heal" others.  I didn't know how or why, but just that I could.  As I was holding my hands to this man's side, I looked down into his eyes and we locked gazes.  There was a spark, something ignited.  The scene flashed with light and I was seeing a different scene.  I was walking and the same man approached me and pushed me up against a wall in a passionate kiss.  The image flashed again and I saw him and I running over grassy hills holding hands.  The scene flashed again and I was in a wood house again, but this time I was delivering a baby.  I saw everything!  It was incredible.  The scene flashed again and I was with the man once more.  We were on the grassy hill quite a ways apart from each other.  We were running.  Someone was chasing us.  He was ahead and I could not run as fast as him.  The man chasing us, caught up to me.  I drew a knife from my belt and turned to face the man screaming as I held the knife above my head to stab him.  As I brought the knife down towards him, he plowed into me knocking me to my knees and wrapping an arm around my neck.  In one fluid movement he brought the knife down and stabbed me.  He was so much stronger than I.  My lover let out a cry of anguish and barrelled into the man and knocked him to his back.  I did not see if he killed him or just knocked him out, but he took me in his arms crying and I died in his arms.

I then saw brief flashes of other random things.  I can't remember all of them.  I know I saw an elk running on one side of me and my rhino running on my other side.  The three of us were running together.  I remember my rhino touching the tip of its horn to my palm chakras, my crown, heart and third eye.  At one point I was walking on top of a lake, or it might of been the ocean.  There was snow all around and it was cold.  It was quiet, serene.  There was ice on the water, but not all of it.  When I reached the center of the body of water, I looked down and saw something move under the water.  I heard a cracking noise as a large creature rose through the water and ice.  I instinctively held out my hand, and a small polar bear stepped up onto the top of the water with me right underneath my hand.  I remember that it was so magnificent and beautiful that I gasped as my hand rested upon its back in its fur.  The polar bear rose on its hind legs and hugged me, knocking me to the ground and licked my face.  I felt so much love for it, and I emanated so much love back to it.  It was such a beautiful moment.  Now, I say it was a small polar bear because even on all fours, their back is higher than my hips, but this polar bear's back was below my hips.  The polar bear let me get up and I placed my hand upon its back again.  It turned its head and looked up at me and nodded.  Then we walked together over the water, my hand still on its back.  Inside, I was very excited about this because as my closest friends know, polar bear is my favorite animal.  I have always had an affinity for them.  This was my first time encountering one in meditation/journey.

After these visualizations, the energy coursing through and around me was really high.  I am really glad I wore my hematite necklace to help ground me.  My head grew very light and I was having a hard time staying awake.  I felt energy trying to go through my lower chakras, but it felt like something was blocking them.  I felt this during most of the attunement.  I started to feel like there was icy hot on my chest.  The sensation spread to my arms and rest of my body.  I felt heat building in my lower abdomen and lower body in the center.

I saw darkness.  A person stepped out of the shadows.  They were completely black, covered in the darkness, like they were a part of it.  I sent a blast wave of bright white light over them.  The light seemed to disintegrate the darkness.  A normal person stepped forward and walked past me.  It was as thought I freed them.  I saw many other brief images, but I cannot remember them.  After a while the energy grew too much and I could not keep my eyes shut because I thought I would tumble out of my chair.  I went to bed at that time, still feeling the energy working in and around me.  I fell asleep quickly and slept very soundly.  This attunement was such a beautiful experience.  I am looking forward to the 3rd one very much.  Once I have taken the 3rd attunement, I will be a master and will be able to attune others.  This is so exciting.  I think I was shown one of my past lives because I was a healer in that life and channeled divine energy to heal, just like reiki.  If that isn't a sign of my life calling, I don't know what is!

Kundalini Reiki

I am very excited as tonight I will be receiving my Kundalini Reiki II attunement.  I wanted to get it right away after my first attunement, but as you all are aware, I took some time for myself.  I feel that it was necessary.  I do not know why at this time, but I feel everything is as it should be and that everything has a reason.  I have felt very mellow all day and relaxed.  Lately, I have been a very busy bee and today was completely different.  I was in such a relaxed state all day that I could have easily drifted off into a nap.  I am still in that state.  I feel it is my body preparing for the attunement tonight.  I feel as though my guides have guided me to be restful and calm today.  It almost feels like the calm before a storm, but a good storm.  :)  I will share my experience of the attunement later tonight or tomorrow.  I feel such a great sense of joy and peace right now.  :)

Automatic Writing

Hello everyone.  I know I sort of went MIA for a while.  I apologize.  I was doing some self healing and examining.  I recently got an automatic writing reading from a wonderful intuitive.  If you would like to check her out, here is her blog: http://healingworks82.blogspot.com/  It really inspired me and I decided to try my hand at it.  I just completed my first attempt and wanted to share it with you all.  I hand wrote it and did it rather fast, so I apologize if my handwriting is hard to read.  I felt rather clear headed and set my mind aside during the process.  I believe I channeled one of my main guides.  I think it went well for my first attempt.  I want to practice more and will share more with you guys in the future.  :)  Here it is:

My New Assignment from My Higher Self

Today I started reading a book called Spiritual Growth, Being Your Higher Self.  I had purchased this book almost a year ago, but had not started to read it until now.  I had loaned it to a friend right after I purchased it.  I think I was not ready for its teachings.  I have just completed my huge forgiveness and healing assignment from my Higher Self.  I think I needed to complete that before moving forward and reading this book. 

I have been off the past week.  I’ve been off spiritually and emotionally.  We just had a full moon and a friend pointed out to me that it is possible the moon put me out of balance.  I feel this is what happened. 

A few weeks ago, I also started a diet and exercise regiment.  This last week I had not followed it and that contributed to me feeling like complete and utter crap I believe! 

Today I pulled myself out of my funk and forced myself to do 18 minutes on the exercise bike. My stomach was bothering me and hurt really bad. I asked Archangel Raphael to help me feel better so that I could do the exercise.  I immediately felt better!  I usually read when I do the exercise bike.  Since I finished the last book I was reading, I decided to start reading Spiritual Growth.  I have actually been planning for at least a week, maybe two, to finally start reading it!  I felt even better once I was done exercising as well.  I made myself an orange and peach Greek yogurt smoothie.  I felt inspired to sit on my back patio and read the book some more.  The more I read, the better I felt. 

Throughout the book, there are meditations.  After I finished the first section I went inside to my office to do the first meditation, which is a meeting with your Higher Self.  I immediately felt my vibration rising as I conducted this meditation.  I conversed with my Higher Self and asked some questions.  My first question was if I had completed the forgiveness assignment fully.  My Higher Self confirmed that I indeed had fully completed the assignment.  My Higher Self was very happy about this.  I then asked what I should work on next, what is my next assignment.  She told me that I must focus on exercising and dieting.  I’ll admit I am a little disappointed that this is what I am to focus on at this time after such a wonderful spiritual growth experience from the reiki healing and forgiveness.  What my Higher Self told me rang true however.  She told me that I cannot stay in a high vibration very long in my current body.  It is too heavy, too grounded.  As she told me this I actually was becoming very uncomfortable from the higher vibration.  It was even slightly painful.  She said my body is not ready for the higher vibrations like the one I was experiencing. 

I know that there are many opinions and debates out there as to whether diet affects spirituality.  I have looked into this and done research.  I do not agree nor disagree with what I have found thus far.  I have always felt like what I eat has always affected me more than physically.  Once I started becoming psychically aware, I started to feel intuitively that my diet and health was holding me back.  My conversation with my Higher Self confirmed this for me today.  Now, please don’t misunderstand what I am explaining here.  This was from my Higher Self to me.  This does not necessarily mean that it applies to everyone else, let alone anyone else but me.  Every single person is different and has different trials and things to go through for growth.  I just know without a doubt that this is what I need to do for me and my spiritual growth.  If it rings true for someone else and helps them grow, then great!  However, I am not stating that this is necessary for anyone who wants to achieve spiritual growth and growth in awareness.  I will be very happy to reap the physical rewards as well as the spiritual from this assignment!

So, I will keep you all posted on my progress and also of anything else spiritual that comes up.  Right now I just have to remember that not giving up is key.  As long as I don’t give up, I will succeed!

March 26, 2013 - Day 30 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – none

Today I started the reiki session and closed my eyes.  I did not feel the reiki energy flow start. As soon as I closed my eyes, I saw my main reiki guide.  She put a hand on my hands and pushed them down gently.  She shook her head and told me I did not need to send the reiki.  I asked her if it was complete then.  She nodded again and said yes.  She smiled at me then faded away.  So, my assignment is completely done.  I felt that it had been complete a few days ago.  I wanted to be sure though, and my guide gave me that confirmation today.  I feel more complete myself, healed.  I feel as though something inside me has shifted and I feel more at peace.  I am very grateful to my Higher Self for asking me to do this forgiveness healing.  I needed to do this for myself.  No one else could have done it for me.  I know I have a great deal many other things that I need to heal within myself.  Everything must be done one step at a time.  Looking back at the past year, I have truly grown by leaps and bounds.  Looking at myself over the past month, I have grown more than in the last six months.  However, I still feel I have a long ways to go.  This does not surprise me though as growth is eternal.  There is no end to how much a person can grow.  This last week of the forgiveness and healing was the most challenging and difficult.  It almost seemed like a part of me did not want to let the remaining pain go.  A part of me wanted to hold onto it because it was all I had left of him.  Now, I see the truth though.  I do truly love him, just as I love everyone in the universe; and even though I had heard the saying that if you truly love someone, you let them go, I did not fully understand that statement before now.  I get it now.  I did let him go, and I let him go with peace, love and light.  A heavy burden has been lifted from my shoulders and I am a lighter person. 

I hope that by sharing this experience with you all, that it will help others too.  I believe we can all learn and help each other.  I am truly surprised at how much this blog has been viewed.  Thank you all my readers for reading and supporting me.  I want to continue to share my experiences with you all, and hope I can help others grow too. 

Love Light Peace

Bear Raven

March 25, 2013 - Day 29 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – none

Today was pretty much the same as yesterday.  I did not see anything, or feel anything other than the calmness of the reiki.  I did not even feel compelled to do the reiki in my office near my altar or to even use any crystals.   It felt like he and his wife were going farther and father away from me.  The distance was so great today; I did not feel them or sense them at all.  I have noticed that their energies have been harder and harder for me to focus on.  I am not seeking them out.  Before when I thought of them to focus sending the reiki to them, I picked up on them so quickly.  Now, they are not there at all.  It’s almost as if this is my guides’ way of telling me that I no longer need to send them the reiki.  I want to follow my Higher Self’s directions completely though.  I will follow through until the end.

March 24, 2013 - Day 28 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Celestite (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Sardonyx (nearby), Moonstone (nearby)

Today I felt even more disconnected from him and his wife.  Up until the past couple days, I felt a connection to them and to the love I was sending them.  Today I saw nothing as I channeled the reiki.  I felt its calm loving energy, that is all.  When I felt the energy stop, I blessed and sealed the session.  Today’s session was about 5 minutes.  Although the 30 days is not yet up, I feel like my assignment is complete.  After having such a strong connection to them for so many days, this feels strange, but almost as if I knew it was coming to be like this. 

March 23, 2013 - Day 27 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Celestite (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Sardonyx (nearby), Moonstone (nearby)

Today I did not feel the urgency to conduct the reiki as I had felt in all the other sessions.  I saw the house and poured the reiki and light into it.  I sent hearts of light into the house as well.  I felt the reiki flowing but it was not as strong as it had been before.  I saw the energy stop flowing before I felt it stop.  I blessed and sealed the session.  Today’s session was about 6 minutes.