Reiki Flush - 1st Session

Last night I spoke to my reiki teacher and told him about how I think I have some energy blocks.  He offered to do a flush healing on me.  This is what I experienced during that flush.  

As I was laying in bed while the session began, I could feel the reiki energy starting to work on me.  I felt a fire burning in my lower abdomen.  It only lasted for a couple minutes then faded.  I closed my eyes to try and sleep and I started to see a lot of things.  I saw my life rewind backwards very quickly through painful and traumatic situations I have had, including several break ups.  The “movie” slowed down when it reached my childhood in the Catalina house (the very first house I grew up in). 

Now, I have always known that the Catalina house was haunted.  I have also always known that some of the entities there were very evil.  I only remembered three or four experiences from that house my entire life.  What I saw during the session surprised me. 

I saw our old basement with 70’s brown and white carpet.  I saw the old mattress on the floor that my brothers and I used to play and wrestle on.  I saw it very clearly and vividly as if I was standing there as a child once again.  Standing right in front of the mattress was a shadow man.  I could see the shape and details of his body and face very clearly but he was all black, or covered completely in black.  He turned his head and looked at me then looked away.  He repeated this several times.  His movements were jerky, twitchy and unnatural.  It was like when a movie skips.  He was very creepy and I did not like the feeling he gave me.  Then I saw a flash and it was a different part of the basement, closer to the back sliding glass door I think.  I saw a huge monster with long sharp pointy teeth (almost like needles or long curved daggers).  It had red flesh with blue veins and looked wet, slimy.  Its eyes were large and out of proportion.  It was almost worm like with claws, talons.  It was growling, snarling and trying to bite me.  It was pure evil.  Both of these things, I have never remembered or recalled seeing before, ever. 

Now, my eldest brother had mentioned one story from that house to me, of him seeing something with a sharp pointed teeth evil grin.  That is the only experience he ever mentioned to me.  I felt the need to talk to my brother of what I had seen during the Meridian Flush session.  I texted him and asked him if he ever saw a shadow man in the Catalina house.  His response was “Yes, along with a lot of other really creepy stuff.”  He had never mentioned the shadow man or anything else other than the one experience to me my entire life.  As soon as I read his text, I got goose bumps.  I knew he had seen it too.  This was huge confirmation for me.  I am not surprised that experiences in that house or things I saw caused energy blocks for me.  Having my energy blocks flushed brought back some memories I did not know I had.  I also had very strange and interesting dreams last night.  I felt pains randomly throughout my body periodically also.  When I got up this morning, I felt like I had been hit by a freight train.  I know that the reiki did what it was supposed to and I am so grateful for it.  

Crossing Over

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I had an interesting experience yesterday and wanted to share.  Firstly, I had listened to an hour long webinar that morning where a well known medium spoke.  He did an opening and closing meditation and spoke about what to do to open your medium abilities and such.  Now, I know I am a medium.  I just have not practiced very much and know it is one of my abilities I need to help expand and understand further.

I was in my kitchen refilling my glass with ice.   As I was putting ice in my glass, I saw a spirit walk through my sliding glass back door.  I paused and opened myself.  She was a cute little old lady.  I would estimate she was somewhere between 80-95 years old.  She was wearing a light pink, almost tan, skirt that was just below her knees, a button up blouse, a pearl necklace and earrings, tan shiny high heels, pantyhose, and she was wearing pink framed round glasses and carrying a purse that matched her shoes.  Her hair was all white and cut short, curled neatly and tightly to her head.  Her face was sweet and she had a peaceful essence.

I said, "Hello."

She responded, "Hello dear."

I then asked, "Why are you here?"

She slowly walked closer to me and she seemed rather sheepish (like when a stranger approaches you in a public place to ask directions), "Excuse me, I hope I'm not intruding but it felt safe here."

Upon hearing her words, I couldn't help but smile and felt loving warmth in my heart.  When I started to accept my gifts and knew I wanted to help people and spirits especially, I wanted to make my home a safe haven for spirits who were stuck here, or who needed my help.  I wanted them to have somewhere safe, warm, and loving to hang out at until I had learned how to help them.  I of course have set rules for the spirits  if they want to stay here in my home, but when I started seeing and sensing all the lost souls around, my heart broke for them.  This sweet old lady confirmed that I have established a temporary safe haven for spirits where they can feel love and safe until I can help them.

I asked her, "What's your name?"

She said, "Pearle."

I said, "I'm Darci.  Nice to meet you Pearle."

She smiled at me.

I asked my next question, "How long have you been here?"

She took a few steps even closer to me before saying, "Oh, not long.  I just arrived."

I was actually very surprised by this.  I had expected her to have been around for quite a while because I know there are a lot of spirits in my home waiting for my help.  I have not helped them yet because there is a Shamanic class I have been trying to save up to take that teaches how to help lost souls.  It is quite expensive so it is taking me a long time to save up for it.

I felt my intuition guiding me to keep talking with her, so I did.  I asked another question, "What do you want?"

She smiled warmly and folded her hands in front of her tummy, "I want to cross over into the light."

Now, I have never helped a spirit cross over before.  I have heard and seen how others do it, but I felt a strong sense that I needed to learn the shamanic way to do it.  I felt strongly that the shamanic way for it should be the only way I do it.  However, I  felt peaceful and calm and my intuition was telling me to try.

So, first I sent her a wave of green light, of love to test and see if she was a loving spirit.  When the wave hit her, she closed her eyes peacefully and reciprocated the love.  This confirmed that she meant me no harm and was not trying to trick me.

My intuition continued to guide me, and I felt like I should ask her to meld with me ( a method I learned in the webinar I listened to that morning).  I invited her to meld her mind with my mind and to channel through me.  Well, she did.  I started seeing flashes of her life.  I saw it like an old black and white movie with faded colors.  I saw her as a young beautiful woman in some sort of uniform.  I saw her dancing a lot at parties or events with girlfriends and occasionally a good looking man.  The men were in Navy uniforms.  I saw her wearing a poodle skirt and 50's outfit doing the Twist dance.  I also saw her in a very nice skirt suit and working in an office.  I saw her riding in an old large car, like a Cadillac or possibly a Rolls Royce.  She was older in the car, wrinkles on her face.  An old man was driving them up the coast of California.  They were holding hands on the seat.  The flashes were very fast and brief.  I felt her emotions.  She felt like she had lived a colorful, vibrant, fulfilling life.  She felt so peaceful.  Once the flashes stopped, I looked at her and smiled.

I said, "I have never helped a spirit cross over into the light before, but I am willing to try if that is what you want."

She nodded and said, "Yes, please."

I called upon my guides, angels and Archangel Michael, Archangel Raphael, and Archangel Gabriel to help me cross her over into the light.  I drew down bright white light from Heavenly Father (or Source) onto me and her.  I channeled the light through my heart chakra out my palms to her.  I completely filled and surrounded her with light.  A large beam of white light that looked like a worm hole flowed down onto her.  She was smiling and touched the light with her hands.  The light sparkled and I felt so much love around the whole room.  I saw a door open on the wall, bright white light shining through it.  Jesus stepped through the door and walked over to Pearle with open arms.  Her eyes slightly teared up as she saw him and she took his hand.  Holding hands, Jesus led her up the white light tunnel going up.  They disappeared into the sky with the light and they were gone.  The door Jesus had come through shut and the light disappeared.  I felt peaceful and filled with love.  I had just helped cross over a spirit into the light for the very first time.  It felt so natural and beautiful.

I will never forget that experience.  I still want to take the Shamanic class for crossing spirits over, but now I know I don't need it to actually help spirits.  Now, I need to pick an article of clothing, or piece of jewelry to wear when I am "working" so spirits will know when I am available to help them.  I don't want them pestering me when I am doing other things.  I have heard this is a good way to manage that.  I am grateful I have the ability to help spirits.  I love helping people, but I love helping spirits more.  I don't know why.  Maybe it is because fewer people can help them then people who can help other people.  Maybe it is just because it is part of my soul purpose.  Whatever the reason, I will keep doing so and helping all to the best of my ability.

Pearle, I hope you are happy and feel so much love where you are now.  I wish you the best as you continue your journey.

Love, Light, Peace
Bear Raven

Kundalini Reiki II Attunement

Last night I received my 2nd Kundalini Reiki attunement.  I felt the presence of all my guides and animal totems after I called them in.  It felt like I had an audience watching me.  There was a bubble of white light around me and my door keeper was keeping a crowd out like a bouncer.  It was strange because I could not see details of people in the crowd, but I do not think they were my guides.  All my guides and totems were inside the bubble with me.  As I waited for it to begin I felt such great love filling my heart chakra.  It just kept filling up more and more.  It felt good, and I felt so grateful that so many love me.  I could feel it start because it felt like my heart chakra opened and all the love poured out through the rest of my body.  I felt the energy in my palms and my crown chakra.  I felt tickling on my crown, arms and legs.  It could have been my guides letting me know they were with me or it could have been the energy coursing through me.  I just closed my eyes and enjoyed the loving energy.  After some time I started to see things.  I saw myself in a past life in Ireland ( I think it was Ireland, might have been Scotland.)  I was in a wood house preparing a poultice with small dried purple flowers and green leaves.  There was a large man laying on a table with a large gash in his side.  I pressed the dried herbs into the gash and held it there with both hands.  My hands were in reiki position and I was channeling energy through them into the man.  It was amazing.  I felt the emotions and thoughts of this woman.  I knew that if I held my hands and cleared my mind, that I could "heal" others.  I didn't know how or why, but just that I could.  As I was holding my hands to this man's side, I looked down into his eyes and we locked gazes.  There was a spark, something ignited.  The scene flashed with light and I was seeing a different scene.  I was walking and the same man approached me and pushed me up against a wall in a passionate kiss.  The image flashed again and I saw him and I running over grassy hills holding hands.  The scene flashed again and I was in a wood house again, but this time I was delivering a baby.  I saw everything!  It was incredible.  The scene flashed again and I was with the man once more.  We were on the grassy hill quite a ways apart from each other.  We were running.  Someone was chasing us.  He was ahead and I could not run as fast as him.  The man chasing us, caught up to me.  I drew a knife from my belt and turned to face the man screaming as I held the knife above my head to stab him.  As I brought the knife down towards him, he plowed into me knocking me to my knees and wrapping an arm around my neck.  In one fluid movement he brought the knife down and stabbed me.  He was so much stronger than I.  My lover let out a cry of anguish and barrelled into the man and knocked him to his back.  I did not see if he killed him or just knocked him out, but he took me in his arms crying and I died in his arms.

I then saw brief flashes of other random things.  I can't remember all of them.  I know I saw an elk running on one side of me and my rhino running on my other side.  The three of us were running together.  I remember my rhino touching the tip of its horn to my palm chakras, my crown, heart and third eye.  At one point I was walking on top of a lake, or it might of been the ocean.  There was snow all around and it was cold.  It was quiet, serene.  There was ice on the water, but not all of it.  When I reached the center of the body of water, I looked down and saw something move under the water.  I heard a cracking noise as a large creature rose through the water and ice.  I instinctively held out my hand, and a small polar bear stepped up onto the top of the water with me right underneath my hand.  I remember that it was so magnificent and beautiful that I gasped as my hand rested upon its back in its fur.  The polar bear rose on its hind legs and hugged me, knocking me to the ground and licked my face.  I felt so much love for it, and I emanated so much love back to it.  It was such a beautiful moment.  Now, I say it was a small polar bear because even on all fours, their back is higher than my hips, but this polar bear's back was below my hips.  The polar bear let me get up and I placed my hand upon its back again.  It turned its head and looked up at me and nodded.  Then we walked together over the water, my hand still on its back.  Inside, I was very excited about this because as my closest friends know, polar bear is my favorite animal.  I have always had an affinity for them.  This was my first time encountering one in meditation/journey.

After these visualizations, the energy coursing through and around me was really high.  I am really glad I wore my hematite necklace to help ground me.  My head grew very light and I was having a hard time staying awake.  I felt energy trying to go through my lower chakras, but it felt like something was blocking them.  I felt this during most of the attunement.  I started to feel like there was icy hot on my chest.  The sensation spread to my arms and rest of my body.  I felt heat building in my lower abdomen and lower body in the center.

I saw darkness.  A person stepped out of the shadows.  They were completely black, covered in the darkness, like they were a part of it.  I sent a blast wave of bright white light over them.  The light seemed to disintegrate the darkness.  A normal person stepped forward and walked past me.  It was as thought I freed them.  I saw many other brief images, but I cannot remember them.  After a while the energy grew too much and I could not keep my eyes shut because I thought I would tumble out of my chair.  I went to bed at that time, still feeling the energy working in and around me.  I fell asleep quickly and slept very soundly.  This attunement was such a beautiful experience.  I am looking forward to the 3rd one very much.  Once I have taken the 3rd attunement, I will be a master and will be able to attune others.  This is so exciting.  I think I was shown one of my past lives because I was a healer in that life and channeled divine energy to heal, just like reiki.  If that isn't a sign of my life calling, I don't know what is!

Kundalini Reiki

I am very excited as tonight I will be receiving my Kundalini Reiki II attunement.  I wanted to get it right away after my first attunement, but as you all are aware, I took some time for myself.  I feel that it was necessary.  I do not know why at this time, but I feel everything is as it should be and that everything has a reason.  I have felt very mellow all day and relaxed.  Lately, I have been a very busy bee and today was completely different.  I was in such a relaxed state all day that I could have easily drifted off into a nap.  I am still in that state.  I feel it is my body preparing for the attunement tonight.  I feel as though my guides have guided me to be restful and calm today.  It almost feels like the calm before a storm, but a good storm.  :)  I will share my experience of the attunement later tonight or tomorrow.  I feel such a great sense of joy and peace right now.  :)

Automatic Writing

Hello everyone.  I know I sort of went MIA for a while.  I apologize.  I was doing some self healing and examining.  I recently got an automatic writing reading from a wonderful intuitive.  If you would like to check her out, here is her blog: http://healingworks82.blogspot.com/  It really inspired me and I decided to try my hand at it.  I just completed my first attempt and wanted to share it with you all.  I hand wrote it and did it rather fast, so I apologize if my handwriting is hard to read.  I felt rather clear headed and set my mind aside during the process.  I believe I channeled one of my main guides.  I think it went well for my first attempt.  I want to practice more and will share more with you guys in the future.  :)  Here it is:

My New Assignment from My Higher Self

Today I started reading a book called Spiritual Growth, Being Your Higher Self.  I had purchased this book almost a year ago, but had not started to read it until now.  I had loaned it to a friend right after I purchased it.  I think I was not ready for its teachings.  I have just completed my huge forgiveness and healing assignment from my Higher Self.  I think I needed to complete that before moving forward and reading this book. 

I have been off the past week.  I’ve been off spiritually and emotionally.  We just had a full moon and a friend pointed out to me that it is possible the moon put me out of balance.  I feel this is what happened. 

A few weeks ago, I also started a diet and exercise regiment.  This last week I had not followed it and that contributed to me feeling like complete and utter crap I believe! 

Today I pulled myself out of my funk and forced myself to do 18 minutes on the exercise bike. My stomach was bothering me and hurt really bad. I asked Archangel Raphael to help me feel better so that I could do the exercise.  I immediately felt better!  I usually read when I do the exercise bike.  Since I finished the last book I was reading, I decided to start reading Spiritual Growth.  I have actually been planning for at least a week, maybe two, to finally start reading it!  I felt even better once I was done exercising as well.  I made myself an orange and peach Greek yogurt smoothie.  I felt inspired to sit on my back patio and read the book some more.  The more I read, the better I felt. 

Throughout the book, there are meditations.  After I finished the first section I went inside to my office to do the first meditation, which is a meeting with your Higher Self.  I immediately felt my vibration rising as I conducted this meditation.  I conversed with my Higher Self and asked some questions.  My first question was if I had completed the forgiveness assignment fully.  My Higher Self confirmed that I indeed had fully completed the assignment.  My Higher Self was very happy about this.  I then asked what I should work on next, what is my next assignment.  She told me that I must focus on exercising and dieting.  I’ll admit I am a little disappointed that this is what I am to focus on at this time after such a wonderful spiritual growth experience from the reiki healing and forgiveness.  What my Higher Self told me rang true however.  She told me that I cannot stay in a high vibration very long in my current body.  It is too heavy, too grounded.  As she told me this I actually was becoming very uncomfortable from the higher vibration.  It was even slightly painful.  She said my body is not ready for the higher vibrations like the one I was experiencing. 

I know that there are many opinions and debates out there as to whether diet affects spirituality.  I have looked into this and done research.  I do not agree nor disagree with what I have found thus far.  I have always felt like what I eat has always affected me more than physically.  Once I started becoming psychically aware, I started to feel intuitively that my diet and health was holding me back.  My conversation with my Higher Self confirmed this for me today.  Now, please don’t misunderstand what I am explaining here.  This was from my Higher Self to me.  This does not necessarily mean that it applies to everyone else, let alone anyone else but me.  Every single person is different and has different trials and things to go through for growth.  I just know without a doubt that this is what I need to do for me and my spiritual growth.  If it rings true for someone else and helps them grow, then great!  However, I am not stating that this is necessary for anyone who wants to achieve spiritual growth and growth in awareness.  I will be very happy to reap the physical rewards as well as the spiritual from this assignment!

So, I will keep you all posted on my progress and also of anything else spiritual that comes up.  Right now I just have to remember that not giving up is key.  As long as I don’t give up, I will succeed!

March 26, 2013 - Day 30 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – none

Today I started the reiki session and closed my eyes.  I did not feel the reiki energy flow start. As soon as I closed my eyes, I saw my main reiki guide.  She put a hand on my hands and pushed them down gently.  She shook her head and told me I did not need to send the reiki.  I asked her if it was complete then.  She nodded again and said yes.  She smiled at me then faded away.  So, my assignment is completely done.  I felt that it had been complete a few days ago.  I wanted to be sure though, and my guide gave me that confirmation today.  I feel more complete myself, healed.  I feel as though something inside me has shifted and I feel more at peace.  I am very grateful to my Higher Self for asking me to do this forgiveness healing.  I needed to do this for myself.  No one else could have done it for me.  I know I have a great deal many other things that I need to heal within myself.  Everything must be done one step at a time.  Looking back at the past year, I have truly grown by leaps and bounds.  Looking at myself over the past month, I have grown more than in the last six months.  However, I still feel I have a long ways to go.  This does not surprise me though as growth is eternal.  There is no end to how much a person can grow.  This last week of the forgiveness and healing was the most challenging and difficult.  It almost seemed like a part of me did not want to let the remaining pain go.  A part of me wanted to hold onto it because it was all I had left of him.  Now, I see the truth though.  I do truly love him, just as I love everyone in the universe; and even though I had heard the saying that if you truly love someone, you let them go, I did not fully understand that statement before now.  I get it now.  I did let him go, and I let him go with peace, love and light.  A heavy burden has been lifted from my shoulders and I am a lighter person. 

I hope that by sharing this experience with you all, that it will help others too.  I believe we can all learn and help each other.  I am truly surprised at how much this blog has been viewed.  Thank you all my readers for reading and supporting me.  I want to continue to share my experiences with you all, and hope I can help others grow too. 

Love Light Peace

Bear Raven