Kundalini Reiki II Attunement

Last night I received my 2nd Kundalini Reiki attunement.  I felt the presence of all my guides and animal totems after I called them in.  It felt like I had an audience watching me.  There was a bubble of white light around me and my door keeper was keeping a crowd out like a bouncer.  It was strange because I could not see details of people in the crowd, but I do not think they were my guides.  All my guides and totems were inside the bubble with me.  As I waited for it to begin I felt such great love filling my heart chakra.  It just kept filling up more and more.  It felt good, and I felt so grateful that so many love me.  I could feel it start because it felt like my heart chakra opened and all the love poured out through the rest of my body.  I felt the energy in my palms and my crown chakra.  I felt tickling on my crown, arms and legs.  It could have been my guides letting me know they were with me or it could have been the energy coursing through me.  I just closed my eyes and enjoyed the loving energy.  After some time I started to see things.  I saw myself in a past life in Ireland ( I think it was Ireland, might have been Scotland.)  I was in a wood house preparing a poultice with small dried purple flowers and green leaves.  There was a large man laying on a table with a large gash in his side.  I pressed the dried herbs into the gash and held it there with both hands.  My hands were in reiki position and I was channeling energy through them into the man.  It was amazing.  I felt the emotions and thoughts of this woman.  I knew that if I held my hands and cleared my mind, that I could "heal" others.  I didn't know how or why, but just that I could.  As I was holding my hands to this man's side, I looked down into his eyes and we locked gazes.  There was a spark, something ignited.  The scene flashed with light and I was seeing a different scene.  I was walking and the same man approached me and pushed me up against a wall in a passionate kiss.  The image flashed again and I saw him and I running over grassy hills holding hands.  The scene flashed again and I was in a wood house again, but this time I was delivering a baby.  I saw everything!  It was incredible.  The scene flashed again and I was with the man once more.  We were on the grassy hill quite a ways apart from each other.  We were running.  Someone was chasing us.  He was ahead and I could not run as fast as him.  The man chasing us, caught up to me.  I drew a knife from my belt and turned to face the man screaming as I held the knife above my head to stab him.  As I brought the knife down towards him, he plowed into me knocking me to my knees and wrapping an arm around my neck.  In one fluid movement he brought the knife down and stabbed me.  He was so much stronger than I.  My lover let out a cry of anguish and barrelled into the man and knocked him to his back.  I did not see if he killed him or just knocked him out, but he took me in his arms crying and I died in his arms.

I then saw brief flashes of other random things.  I can't remember all of them.  I know I saw an elk running on one side of me and my rhino running on my other side.  The three of us were running together.  I remember my rhino touching the tip of its horn to my palm chakras, my crown, heart and third eye.  At one point I was walking on top of a lake, or it might of been the ocean.  There was snow all around and it was cold.  It was quiet, serene.  There was ice on the water, but not all of it.  When I reached the center of the body of water, I looked down and saw something move under the water.  I heard a cracking noise as a large creature rose through the water and ice.  I instinctively held out my hand, and a small polar bear stepped up onto the top of the water with me right underneath my hand.  I remember that it was so magnificent and beautiful that I gasped as my hand rested upon its back in its fur.  The polar bear rose on its hind legs and hugged me, knocking me to the ground and licked my face.  I felt so much love for it, and I emanated so much love back to it.  It was such a beautiful moment.  Now, I say it was a small polar bear because even on all fours, their back is higher than my hips, but this polar bear's back was below my hips.  The polar bear let me get up and I placed my hand upon its back again.  It turned its head and looked up at me and nodded.  Then we walked together over the water, my hand still on its back.  Inside, I was very excited about this because as my closest friends know, polar bear is my favorite animal.  I have always had an affinity for them.  This was my first time encountering one in meditation/journey.

After these visualizations, the energy coursing through and around me was really high.  I am really glad I wore my hematite necklace to help ground me.  My head grew very light and I was having a hard time staying awake.  I felt energy trying to go through my lower chakras, but it felt like something was blocking them.  I felt this during most of the attunement.  I started to feel like there was icy hot on my chest.  The sensation spread to my arms and rest of my body.  I felt heat building in my lower abdomen and lower body in the center.

I saw darkness.  A person stepped out of the shadows.  They were completely black, covered in the darkness, like they were a part of it.  I sent a blast wave of bright white light over them.  The light seemed to disintegrate the darkness.  A normal person stepped forward and walked past me.  It was as thought I freed them.  I saw many other brief images, but I cannot remember them.  After a while the energy grew too much and I could not keep my eyes shut because I thought I would tumble out of my chair.  I went to bed at that time, still feeling the energy working in and around me.  I fell asleep quickly and slept very soundly.  This attunement was such a beautiful experience.  I am looking forward to the 3rd one very much.  Once I have taken the 3rd attunement, I will be a master and will be able to attune others.  This is so exciting.  I think I was shown one of my past lives because I was a healer in that life and channeled divine energy to heal, just like reiki.  If that isn't a sign of my life calling, I don't know what is!