Good day all of you lovely souls. Lately I have been having strange experiences and seem to have been struggling more so than usual. I am used to struggling with depression in phases. It has always been a normal part of me and my life. But lately it has felt different, almost as if it is on a different frequency. A sense of hopelessness has been stronger, but my intuition has been kicking on a lot more and telling me to do certain things to overcome or heal it. I also have been having repeatedly stranger dreams than normal. I also wake up from some of these dreams with a sense that an intense healing or spiritual work occurred during my dream state.
This morning when I woke up, the first thing that came to my groggy mind was that I needed to journey and meditate. I normally don't journey or meditate until I have fully woken up, which sometimes takes a couple hours. So, I made my cup of coffee and let the dog out. I put on drumming music and put on my headphones. I lied down, put on my blindfold and began my normal clearing and shielding process. My shaman stone spoke and wanted to be a part of it, so I placed it on my chest.
I ended up just enjoying the energy and talking with some of my guides. I saw one of my warrior guides that I had not spoken to in a long time. I gave flowing pink energy of pure love to my guides and thanked them for all that they do for me. I also hugged every single one of them. My healer guides were working on me throughout this. A woman in a white dress with very long blonde hair walked up to me and sat beside me. She looked familiar but I don't think I have encountered her before. She introduced herself as "Ifrit" or "Ifruit." I could not get a clear spelling of the name, but she said after I research her name it will make sense to me. It feels that her name is very important. I thought it was Nordic, but I am not sure. She was very calming and loving. She told me she is my witch guide. She said I am coming along in reconnecting with that part of me. Now, a little background, witchcraft is still new to me. I received many messages over the past few years to connect to the divine feminine and work with the moon. It is only this year I came to realize that those messages meant learning about being a witch.
I asked some questions that I have been meaning to ask my guides lately. She responded with that what I am going through right now is pain from my memories. She said that I am remembering memories and knowledge from some of my past lives. She said that is why I am waking up from strange dreams with knowledge I did not have before. This was spot on because I have woken up lately and gone straight to writing because words of chants and rituals were fresh in my mind that I never knew before. She said that with remembering this knowledge, I am also remembering the pain from those lives. She then showed me how some pains in life go straight into our souls and remain there, as a memory in our soul. She said it is pertinent I let these memories and memories of pain resurface for healing. She said a lot is coming to the surface right now for healing, not just from this life but from others as well. She impressed upon me that the most important thing I do at this time is heal myself, and do a lot of it. So, not only must I work on healing past pains from this life, but past pains from more than one other past life as well.
This makes so much sense to me at this time. It coordinates with everything I have been feeling and experiencing. I want to be the best healer that I can be, and in order to do that I must continue healing myself. I have always known this. I accepted at the beginning of my awakening that self-healing is a constant process. It is a continuous part of our journey. Even if we heal everything from our past, new things will come into our lives or resurface that needs to be healed.
Monday, October 12, 2015
Thursday, October 8, 2015
Energy Storm ~ Don't Feel Hopeless
Lately there has been a heavy energy storm. A lot of people I know have been and are affected. It started before the blood moon. I think it is connected to the current retrogrades and the blood moon that occurred. If you have been feeling depressed, lazy, unmotivated, drained, lethargic, nauseous, stomach pains, headaches, weak, hopeless, or not feeling anything at all (bad or good emotions, just numb) then you may be affected too. I first noticed something was off when I learned there was going to be a super blood moon. Normally this kind of thing would excite me, and I would make plans to view and enjoy the energy. However, I just didn't care. I didn't even go outside once that night. Even seeing pictures of the blood moon, I just felt like "so what?" That is when I realized I hadn't been feeling anything energy-wise for a while. This was odd, because I'm normally super sensitive to energies.
I didn't think too much about it. I figured I must just be going through another rest phase, which happens to me quite often. Then last week I had a horrible lucid dream that was like living in a horror movie. Once I had fully woken from it, I felt unnatural energy in my bedroom. I was incredibly uncomfortable and had goosebumps. I knew I had been under attack. This was the eye opener I needed. I knew something was amiss and started praying and asking for help from God, Goddess, my angels, and guides. It has been a week, but the past few days I felt I had been getting messages from the divine white beings of light.
Last night, I was inspired to take two of my crystals to bed with me and place them on the windowsill that lies directly above my pillow. So, I placed my rhodonite and peacock pyrite there with my other crystals I leave there from time to time. I slept heavily and deeply. This morning I woke up feeling healed, energized, and reconnected to divine in full. As soon as I started opening my eyes I felt instantly motivated to write and create my own spell today, my first spell for my book of shadows (which I have not created yet). I thought this was interesting because while I was falling asleep I was asking for guidance and help to clear and heal this heavy energy affecting everyone. Even as I started to lose myself to sleep's embrace, I thought I should do a ritual for the whole world dealing with this.
It is amazing, even when the darkness is launching a full-frontal worldwide attack, divine love and light still fights the good fight. So, if you have been suffering during this energy storm, do not give up. Do not think anything is wrong with you. There is still light at the end of tunnel. There is always hope, always. Once I have written and created the spell, I will perform it, the ritual and share it with you all. Sending love, light, and hope to all of you at this time.
Love,
Bear Raven
I didn't think too much about it. I figured I must just be going through another rest phase, which happens to me quite often. Then last week I had a horrible lucid dream that was like living in a horror movie. Once I had fully woken from it, I felt unnatural energy in my bedroom. I was incredibly uncomfortable and had goosebumps. I knew I had been under attack. This was the eye opener I needed. I knew something was amiss and started praying and asking for help from God, Goddess, my angels, and guides. It has been a week, but the past few days I felt I had been getting messages from the divine white beings of light.
Last night, I was inspired to take two of my crystals to bed with me and place them on the windowsill that lies directly above my pillow. So, I placed my rhodonite and peacock pyrite there with my other crystals I leave there from time to time. I slept heavily and deeply. This morning I woke up feeling healed, energized, and reconnected to divine in full. As soon as I started opening my eyes I felt instantly motivated to write and create my own spell today, my first spell for my book of shadows (which I have not created yet). I thought this was interesting because while I was falling asleep I was asking for guidance and help to clear and heal this heavy energy affecting everyone. Even as I started to lose myself to sleep's embrace, I thought I should do a ritual for the whole world dealing with this.
It is amazing, even when the darkness is launching a full-frontal worldwide attack, divine love and light still fights the good fight. So, if you have been suffering during this energy storm, do not give up. Do not think anything is wrong with you. There is still light at the end of tunnel. There is always hope, always. Once I have written and created the spell, I will perform it, the ritual and share it with you all. Sending love, light, and hope to all of you at this time.
Love,
Bear Raven
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