Unexpected Journey and a Fairy

I was doing my daily meditation a little bit ago and my Rhino appeared to me instantly.  He wanted to take me on a journey and I was not expecting to do that today.  He told me to merge with him, and so I did.  I felt very comfortable in his form.  It felt good being large and heavy, sturdy.  It felt like it was a good thing (and usually when we feel large and heavy, we feel fat and negative emotions associated with being fat).  Our bodies became one and we went running.  He leaped into the cave entrance I use for journeying and we continued running.  I recognized fluorescent glowing lights along the cave walls.  Soon, there was a pool ahead with a small island in the center.  There was a woman sitting on the island in formal wear and she was just chilling out there.  I have seen this before.  The woman nodded politely to me as we walked past.  I asked my Rhino why she was there, or what it meant.  He told me that today was not the right time for that.  Then he broke into a run again.  We came to an edge of a cliff with a ladder leading down.  He told me to take us down.  Even though we were merged and I was as the Rhino, it only took a thought from me to have my human body back and walk us down the ladder.  This time, my Rhino was within my body.  When we got to the bottom, we transformed back into the Rhino form.  In only a few steps we approached a large opening that opened into a huge beautiful forest.  I slowly emerged from his body and was my own again. We walked slowly and I kept one hand on his side.  I have been to this forest before.

I asked him ,"Why are we here?"

I don't remember his exact response, but it was something along the lines of "wait and see."

It started to thunder and rain heavily.  I asked him if this was happening because I was listening to a thunderstorm track for my meditation.

He chuckled and said, "No, it is because you wanted rain and you need its healing."

This made me smile as earlier I had prayed for rain because I need its healing power.  I held my arms to the sky and enjoyed the fat droplets hitting my skin.  I fell on my back to the forest floor and smelled the wet soil.  I rolled around, feeling the soil, rain, and plants.  I laid on my back staring up at the cloud filled sky with the towering trees above.  An insect crawled on my hand and slowly up my arm.  I smiled at it and remained still, listening to the forest.  As I sat up, the ground shook and an enormous praying mantis walked by.  It was so large it was bigger than most buildings.  I looked up amazed at the underside of its belly.  It disappeared through the trees and started to shrink.  It shrunk to a normal size for a praying mantis and flew to me.  It landed on my left arm and crawled up to sit on my shoulder.  It started whispering in my ear.

The praying mantis I discovered is another animal totem for me.  She started explaining why.  Now, I have not read anything on praying mantis animal totems.  This all came from her.  She told me that I need to be sure to camouflage myself and then congratulated me on doing so regularly.  She encouraged me to spend more time around and among plants, respecting their gift of life, food, and shelter.  What she told me next surprised me, but made total sense.  She said that I take what I need from my mates and move on.  She said I devour what I need and then move on to the next to find what I need.  As she explained this she showed me how Praying Mantis females devour the heads of their mates after mating.  She then told me I do this because my true mate is not here on this Earth to be with me, that I am here to help others.  And so I find temporary mates to fill my needs.  Considering the history of my love life, this made complete sense.

Rhino then prompted me to walk.  We walked together and I saw a lake with a small island on it.  My higher self was sitting there and she smiled when she saw me.  The swan floating on the lake at her side swam to in front of the island and there were several other swans suddenly.  She stepped on the backs of the swans and came to me, giving me a loving hug.  She took my hand and started walking back across the swans to the island.  I started to protest, not wanting to hurt the swans, but when I looked down before I stepped, I noticed that the swans were now stone and turned facing the island now.  Whereas before, the swans were facing me.  I was mystified and with my higher self's encouragement, stepped across the backs of the stone swans to the little island.  She took my hands and we sat together on the mossy grass.  I started to ask about the swans and she just laughed and then told me that this was a magical forest.  The island started to move as I heard a loud groaning animal noise.  The island rose higher and higher and I saw that it was actually the head of an animal!  It had a very long neck and its skin was green and turquoise in color.  When my eyes saw the body rise from the forest floor which was part water and part soil, my mouth dropped open.  It was a Plesiosaur.  I started to ask my higher self what his name was, but as soon as I said him, she corrected me and said she.  I was so enthralled that it was a female that I lost interest in her name.

For those of you unfamiliar with the term, it is an herbivore water dinosaur.  https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Plesiosauria

The head rose almost above the forest canopy, hovering just under it.  My higher self then told me that the reason I had seen the Bear Lake monster and felt such a connection to it, was because it was one of my totems.  I was not expecting this, but it rang true and made sense.  I was in awe and filled with joy.  My higher self then took the time to tell me that I am on the right path, that I need to remain positive and push my website.  She encouraged me to keep going and that I pulled the "You are on the right path" card yesterday because it is true.  Then a bright light appeared from the sky and shone on me.  A hand from the light handed me a pink square envelope that opened from four folds.  Inside the envelope was a large amount of cash.  I held it to my heart and poured forth my gratitude and love.  I tucked the envelope into a pocket under my arm.  Then my higher self took my hand and placed a small ball of white light in my palm.  I could make out little wings and noticed arms and legs, almost invisible in the bright light.  It was a fairy.  She told me to keep seeking the fairy realms.  She told me that when I was a child I conversed with the fairies almost every day and that I was starting to remember.  She said that it is time I start seeking them out so that I may converse with them on a daily basis once again.  She told me the fairy in my palm was a companion of mine when I was a child and I was now ready to have her as a companion again.  I asked the fairy her name.  Her name is Oona, Loona or Lunia.  She said I could call her any of those.  I was skeptical as that is a fairy name in some movies.  My higher self tut-tutted me and said that just because it was in a movie does not mean it was not true or real.  Oona asked me if I believed in faeries.  I told her why yes of course I do!  She seemed pleased by this because Oona made a funny face at me and made me laugh.  The Plesiosaur then began lowered back down to the forest floor and water.  The island settled and I knew it was time to go.  I thanked everyone with love in my heart.  I stepped off the stone swans and met my Rhino again.  We merged and ran together, heading back the way we came.  Soon, my Rhino was leaping us through the cave entrance into a bright white light and then I opened my eyes and was back in my office.

Meeting a fairy companion surprised me but I welcome her!  I just started reading Enchantment of the Fairie Realm by Ted Andrews last night.  I do not believe in coincidences.  I look forward to opening up to these realms and experiences!  I have always believed in faeries!

I was not planning to journey today, so this was an unexpected surprise.  I just had to journal they experience before I forgot any details.  I just love how my guides step up when the time is right!  I hope everyone has a beautiful day!
~*Namaste*~
Bear Raven

My First Encounter with Archangel Kamiel

I had just an okay day today.  I did not do my usual meditation and Reiki early in the day like I usually do. I spent a good amount of my day applying for scholarships and orientating myself on my university's website.  For those of you who do not know, I am starting school in September for my degree in Psychology.  =^)

My husband had a bad day at work and was very moody when he got home.  He remained grumpy even when he went to bed.  Being a strong empath, this made me depressed and moody too.  I felt my gut telling me that I needed to shield because I was feeling his emotions, not my own.  In the past, I have ignored my gut and just stayed in bed and read or played games until I fell asleep.  After all the progress I have been making and how positive I have been, I really did not want to do that tonight.  So, I took a shower and then came into my office to meditate and do Reiki on myself.

Boy, am I sure glad I did!  I grabbed my rose quartz and placed it on my chest over my heart before I started.  After I meditated, balanced and cleared my chakras, I started shielding myself.  As I started, a new person I did not recognize appeared and began putting up my shields for me.  He had a huge nose and long super curly hair, like permed!  His hair was light brown to gold in color.  It could have been brown with gold highlights even.  His face was like a combination of Gene Wilder's and Dustin Hoffman's, but unique.  He was wearing a court jester outfit minus the hat.  The garb was red and yellow in color.    He was very animated.  Almost immediately I began to ask who he was, but before I could finish my question I felt and heard "Archangel Kamiel."  He also smiled at me at the same time.  I felt a soft loving warmth spread over me.  For the past few weeks, maybe even the last month, I have been calling on Archangel Kamiel almost daily to assist me in grounding, shielding, and healing sessions.

After he shielded me and surrounded me with love, he knelt down next to me to talk.  He confirmed that I was picking up my husband's emotions and that I need to make sure I shield every day before he gets home. He comforted me and told me some other things I needed to hear.  He said we were very old friends and while we talked it did feel like we have known each other a very long time.  His hands and arms were very animated as he talked. He stood up and slowly started to walk away.  I asked him to wait.  I asked him how I was doing.  He tilted his head with a coy smile and asked me what I thought.  I thought briefly and couldn't help but smile as I told him I thought I was doing amazing.  His smile broadened and he nodded knowingly.

He then said, "Precisely."

Then he did a funny dance and jump.  I laughed and asked why he was dressed in a court jester outfit.  He told me he thought I needed a good laugh.  This made me smile and I actually had a couple happy tears from the whole encounter.

He then said to me, "You know why you like that Doctor Who TV show so much?"

Surprised by his question, I asked, "Why?"

He then said, "Because the Doctor reminds you, well your subconscious, of me," and he smiled a huge cheesy smile.

I laughed again, but could feel the truth in his words with a warm and light feeling in my chest.  I stood up, walked over to him and opened my arms and asked if I could hug him.  He said yes of course I could hug him and said he was a hugger.  He seemed flustered I even asked, like I should already know.  He embraced me in one of the best bear hugs I have ever experienced.  He told me to go and spend the rest of my evening taking care of me.  He said if I wanted to heal others than by all means to go ahead and do so, but to do whatever I wanted and take care of myself because taking care of myself is very important.  He then left waving goodbye.  This was my first time meeting him in this life.  He told me he has known me a very long time and I have know him a very long time also, even though this was my first time meeting him in this life.  I am so grateful he came to me tonight and had a nice long talk with me.  I needed it.  Thank you Archangel Kamiel for helping me tonight and for always watching over me.  Love and light.  ~*Namaste*~

Drums of the Wolf and Prayer Braid Meditation

I am usually in bed getting ready to fall asleep around this time.  I just took a cool shower and took out my contact lenses and got into bed.  As I picked up my phone to do some reading before sleep time, I realized that I needed to write down the incredible experience and messages I received tonight.  So, here I am.  =^)

Today has been an amazing day overall.  I got to see my dear friend, Krissy, and we went to the Temple of Sekhmet together.  She loved it, just as I knew she would.  As we left the guest trailer to go sit in the temple, it down-poured on us!  It was cloudy all day, but had only rained a little early in the morning.  We both loved the cleansing rain as it danced on our skin and soaked our clothes.  There was gentle thunder and it felt almost as if the Goddesses were saying "Welcome!"  We had a lovely and powerful time there.

Later, we attended a class and meditation that one of my other soul sisters was hosting.  It was called "Drums of the Wolf Meditation."  I have been wanting to go to this for a few months now.  For some reason I felt I must go to it with Krissy and the last couple times that it was held, we just were not able to go.  We finally were able to go tonight and I am glad tonight was our first.  A very special guest also attended tonight's meditation.  It was the artist of The Animal Wisdom Deck and of my favorite spiritual picture, Rhino.  For those of you who don't know, Rhino is one of my power animals and very important to me right now in my spiritual journey.  Before the class, I took her hand and looked her in the eyes and expressed to her the meaning of her artwork and how this single painting/drawing of Rhino has changed my life, touched my soul and meant so much to me.  She was gracious, sweet and very glad to hear my story.  Her energy is so warm and loving!  It was an honor to meet her and be in her presence.  What an example to learn from.

Now the main reason I wanted to write this at all tonight was the journey I had during this class.  I wanted to write it all down before I forgot anything!  The meditation started with shamanic drumming.  I did not set an intent or question for my journey.  I asked my guides to lead me wherever they felt I needed to go.  After I closed my eyes and listened to the drumming, I instantly saw the cave entrance I have used before for journeying.  I was pleasantly surprised to see my Rhino standing there waiting for me.  I have never journeyed with my Rhino before, so I was very happy and excited!

My Rhino nuzzled my shoulder and told me to climb on its back.  I did so and it began walking down into the cave.  I had to lay down on its back with my arms holding onto its neck so that I would not bump into the cave ceiling.  Slowly and gradually my Rhino walked down deeper into the cave.  After a short while, I saw a wolf ahead.  It looked at my Rhino and then turned and ran.  My Rhino began to run as well, following the wolf.  Before I knew it, the cave walls were flying by very fast as my Rhino ran faster and faster.  Soon the cave walls turned into stars and looking around I realized we were now traveling through astral.  My Rhino seemed to be running on a path that looked like rainbow glass. I could see galaxies, stars, and planets all around us.  I remember thinking, "Wow. We are going so fast."  I felt my Rhino thinking, "You think this is fast? Ha!  Watch this!"  and he took off even faster!  I was holding on for dear life.  I did not want to fall off!
To the right and becoming closer to us as my Rhino ran, was a large orange planet.  Rhino jumped and pounded its feet very hard and all at once on the planet, almost leaping off it back to the path.  The planet shook from my Rhino's mighty step.  As I watched the planet shake and tremble, I felt my Rhino think, "You too have the power the shake the universe."  The path turned in a big loop and we kept traveling.  The speed increased even more and then it looked like we were traveling through a wormhole.

All of a sudden we came to a stop and we were standing in a green grassy meadow.  I slid off Rhino's back as I took in my surroundings.  The sky was bright sky blue and rippling like water.  I could see the stars and galaxies through it as it was partially transparent, like a pool.  The grass was bright green, but trees in the distance were grey or dark brown with no leaves.  It definitely looked alien.  My Rhino casually lumbered slowly as it grabbed mouthfuls of grass and chewed leisurely.  I then felt my Rhino think, "Eat."  I squatted down and gently placed my hand on the earth.  I asked the planet, or land, if I may take from it.  In response, a hand made from the soil rose out of the ground offering me a bunch of grass and soil, and I felt it answer "eat."  I grabbed a handful of the grass and pulled it up, placing it soil first in my mouth.  I chewed and ate it grateful for it.  It tasted earthy, sweet and rich and I felt it fill me up warmly.  I then had a the sudden urge and desire to be naked, to be completely wild and embrace my femininity and be one with the earth.  As I felt this, my clothes fell away almost instantly.  Completely naked, I then rolled in mud and dirt until I was completely covered head to toe.  I held my hands to the sky and felt powerful and one with the land.  I was completely filled with love and strength.  My Rhino then sauntered off to a nearby pond, or lake, that was still as glass.  Rhino began to drink and I felt Rhino think, "drink."  I approached the water right next to Rhino and got down on all fours.  I looked at my reflection in the water as I began to ask for permission to drink from the water.  Again I heard, "drink."  And so I began to drink by placing my mouth to the water's surface just like Rhino.

The water was thick, refreshing, and sweet.  It too filled me to my core as the grass had.  I then saw myself transform into a Rhino.  My Rhino and I then started running around the meadow together happily.  I felt one with Rhino. I sensed we should head back and so I climbed back on Rhino's back, and once again I was human.  Almost instantaneously we returned to the cave and outside of the cave entrance.  I hugged my Rhino and expressed my love and gratitude to it.  I felt it return the love.  I started to give Rhino Reiki as my way of giving back and it stopped me.  Well, it didn't really stop me, but it interrupted me.  Rhino gave me its horn.  Where its horn had been looked like it had been sawed off.  The horn floated into my hands with sparkling light surrounding it from above.  I said, "This is your horn.  I cannot take your horn."  Rhino answered, "Eh, I can grow another."  It sounded so laid back and easy going about it.  I could not deny its gift.  I held the horn above my head, grateful and honoring its power.  Then I hugged the horn to my chest and pressed it into me.  The horn melded into my chest and become one with my body and soul.  I felt my heart chakra grow and glow brighter than ever.  I even saw the shade of green change in my heart chakra.  It became a brighter, more vibrant shade of green. I held Rhino's face and looked into its eye lovingly.  Rhino then said, "Now we are one.  We are one."  Rhino's words felt so true.  I felt it resonate with me deeply.  I knelt in front of Rhino and just held my hands on its two front feet. Rhino lied down and we just sat together peacefully.

I just listened to the beat of the drum and I started to hear Native voices chanting along.  Then my mink came running up to me and into my lap.  It looked up at me and I petted it lovingly.  I felt it think, "run with me," and it took off running.  So, I got up, turned into a mink and started running after her.  It was sort of a running game, a chase.  It was fun.  The beat of the drum shifted and pulled me back out of the meditative state.  I was blown away by the journey I had just taken.  I am still blown away!  We each shared what we experienced.  It was a beautiful circle to share with these other women.

We then picked our colored threads and started making our prayer braids.  I am so glad I learned how to do prayer braiding.  I released a lot of negative emotions from my past and felt a great healing occur from this.  I am going to make many more prayer braids.  The simple movement is very relaxing and really helped my mind go into a meditative state.  I look forward to healing, releasing, and bringing many more things into my life through prayer braids.

This whole day and night was wonderful and beautiful.  I am so grateful for all my soul sisters who bring love and change into my life.  Every single one of you are important to me!  I love you all with all my being.  Well, now I feel ready for bed!  Have a wonderful evening everyone!

~~~* I'd like to throw out a huge thank you and love to Krissy, Melissa, and Jada!*~~~

Love, Light, and Peace
~*Namaste*~
~ Bear Raven

Website & Special

I recently lowered all my prices on my website.  I mean, I really lowered them so that there is something for everyone!  Also, I have a summer special going and it ends once August is over!  The special is buy one get one free.  So, you can buy a reading and get another reading or healing for free.  Buy a healing and get a reading or another healing free.  You can do any combination you want.  Only thing is the free one has to be equal or lesser value than the one you purchase!  I have plenty of time and so if you order I will do your reading within 24 hours.  I will probably be able to do a turn around the same day.  If you have any questions or are interested in a service you don't see on my website, just email me and ask!  I am here to help you any way I can!

My website is bearraven.weebly.com

and my email is bear_raven@divinepathways.com

Have a blessed evening everyone!

~*Namaste*~
Bear Raven

Continuing Self Healing

I have been receiving messages and guidance from my guides and angels to continue my self healing.  I am learning that there is never an end to self healing.  It must be constant, just as a constant need to improve ourselves.  I am adamant about continuing my journey to help people.  It truly feels right to me to heal myself so that I may be a clearer channel for divine energy to heal others.  I am so grateful for the opportunity to learn reiki and the ability to use it to help others.

Yesterday a friend took me to the temple of Sekhmet that is close to our city.  It is actually about a thirty minute drive outside of town, but it is worth it. It is more like a sanctuary that is dedicated to all Goddesses, but it was built for and to honor Sekhmet.  It sits on a natural spring so there are huge lush tress and lots of desert plant life.  There is a small labyrinth, which I did not get the opportunity to walk yesterday.  I will have to walk it next time I visit.  The temple also rests on Native land which the founder purchased and deeded back to the Western Shoshone who originally inhabited the land.  As I walked the grounds and sat in the temple last night, I certainly felt the ancestors all around me.  As I sat and enjoyed the silence and peace in the temple, I heard a few notes of a wooden flute on the wind.  At that moment, my friend and I were both thinking about our shamanic drums and bringing them out for a drumming ceremony or journey.  It almost felt like approval from the ancestors of that land.

All my life I have struggled with connecting to my own feminine energy and connecting with other females.  I have always felt like "one of the guys."  We did a New Moon ceremony of making our own collages of how people perceive us and how we really are on the inside.  Only women are allowed at the New Moon ceremonies, but everyone is welcome any other time.  There were only four of us last night, including the Priestess.  However, I truly enjoyed the intimacy of the small group.  The other three women there have beautiful souls and I feel I connected to them on a deep level.  It had been a really long time since I had done anything creative like this and it proved to actually be quite self healing.  I am going to hang the collage in my spiritual room as it is inspiration for me.  I am looking forward to many more beautiful experiences out there.

I just finished my reiki meditation and self healing for today before I started this blog post.  I still have many things to self heal.  Every time I do healing on myself, I am filled with peace and love.  I hope every time I channel reiki for someone else that they too feel this wonderful feeling.  As I was laying down enjoying the flow of the energy, I briefly heard voices of a large crowd whispering around me.  I know it was the spirits who are waiting for my help.  I am glad they made themselves known this way to remind me that they are indeed there and waiting patiently.  I know I have a lot more work ahead of me, but I am so looking forward to it.  I find I am more excited about the journey itself rather then the destination.  I am so grateful for every day of my life and those in it and those who will become a part of it.  I would not be where I am today without my dear friends and family who support me 100% in my spiritual endeavors.  I will not list names, as I do not want to make anyone feel left out.  However, if you are reading this, more than likely you are one who has inspired or helped me along the way.  So, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.  I want to radiate love and light to all in the entire universe.  I am grateful for the opportunities that keep presenting themselves to me.  Thank you Heavenly Father and Mother Earth for all the blessings in my life.

Namaste
~Bear Raven~

Reiki Flush - 1st Session

Last night I spoke to my reiki teacher and told him about how I think I have some energy blocks.  He offered to do a flush healing on me.  This is what I experienced during that flush.  

As I was laying in bed while the session began, I could feel the reiki energy starting to work on me.  I felt a fire burning in my lower abdomen.  It only lasted for a couple minutes then faded.  I closed my eyes to try and sleep and I started to see a lot of things.  I saw my life rewind backwards very quickly through painful and traumatic situations I have had, including several break ups.  The “movie” slowed down when it reached my childhood in the Catalina house (the very first house I grew up in). 

Now, I have always known that the Catalina house was haunted.  I have also always known that some of the entities there were very evil.  I only remembered three or four experiences from that house my entire life.  What I saw during the session surprised me. 

I saw our old basement with 70’s brown and white carpet.  I saw the old mattress on the floor that my brothers and I used to play and wrestle on.  I saw it very clearly and vividly as if I was standing there as a child once again.  Standing right in front of the mattress was a shadow man.  I could see the shape and details of his body and face very clearly but he was all black, or covered completely in black.  He turned his head and looked at me then looked away.  He repeated this several times.  His movements were jerky, twitchy and unnatural.  It was like when a movie skips.  He was very creepy and I did not like the feeling he gave me.  Then I saw a flash and it was a different part of the basement, closer to the back sliding glass door I think.  I saw a huge monster with long sharp pointy teeth (almost like needles or long curved daggers).  It had red flesh with blue veins and looked wet, slimy.  Its eyes were large and out of proportion.  It was almost worm like with claws, talons.  It was growling, snarling and trying to bite me.  It was pure evil.  Both of these things, I have never remembered or recalled seeing before, ever. 

Now, my eldest brother had mentioned one story from that house to me, of him seeing something with a sharp pointed teeth evil grin.  That is the only experience he ever mentioned to me.  I felt the need to talk to my brother of what I had seen during the Meridian Flush session.  I texted him and asked him if he ever saw a shadow man in the Catalina house.  His response was “Yes, along with a lot of other really creepy stuff.”  He had never mentioned the shadow man or anything else other than the one experience to me my entire life.  As soon as I read his text, I got goose bumps.  I knew he had seen it too.  This was huge confirmation for me.  I am not surprised that experiences in that house or things I saw caused energy blocks for me.  Having my energy blocks flushed brought back some memories I did not know I had.  I also had very strange and interesting dreams last night.  I felt pains randomly throughout my body periodically also.  When I got up this morning, I felt like I had been hit by a freight train.  I know that the reiki did what it was supposed to and I am so grateful for it.  

Crossing Over

Well, good day all you beautiful people!  I have been busy working on my website which is now up.  If you are interested in a reading or healing from me, check it out!  =>

I had an interesting experience yesterday and wanted to share.  Firstly, I had listened to an hour long webinar that morning where a well known medium spoke.  He did an opening and closing meditation and spoke about what to do to open your medium abilities and such.  Now, I know I am a medium.  I just have not practiced very much and know it is one of my abilities I need to help expand and understand further.

I was in my kitchen refilling my glass with ice.   As I was putting ice in my glass, I saw a spirit walk through my sliding glass back door.  I paused and opened myself.  She was a cute little old lady.  I would estimate she was somewhere between 80-95 years old.  She was wearing a light pink, almost tan, skirt that was just below her knees, a button up blouse, a pearl necklace and earrings, tan shiny high heels, pantyhose, and she was wearing pink framed round glasses and carrying a purse that matched her shoes.  Her hair was all white and cut short, curled neatly and tightly to her head.  Her face was sweet and she had a peaceful essence.

I said, "Hello."

She responded, "Hello dear."

I then asked, "Why are you here?"

She slowly walked closer to me and she seemed rather sheepish (like when a stranger approaches you in a public place to ask directions), "Excuse me, I hope I'm not intruding but it felt safe here."

Upon hearing her words, I couldn't help but smile and felt loving warmth in my heart.  When I started to accept my gifts and knew I wanted to help people and spirits especially, I wanted to make my home a safe haven for spirits who were stuck here, or who needed my help.  I wanted them to have somewhere safe, warm, and loving to hang out at until I had learned how to help them.  I of course have set rules for the spirits  if they want to stay here in my home, but when I started seeing and sensing all the lost souls around, my heart broke for them.  This sweet old lady confirmed that I have established a temporary safe haven for spirits where they can feel love and safe until I can help them.

I asked her, "What's your name?"

She said, "Pearle."

I said, "I'm Darci.  Nice to meet you Pearle."

She smiled at me.

I asked my next question, "How long have you been here?"

She took a few steps even closer to me before saying, "Oh, not long.  I just arrived."

I was actually very surprised by this.  I had expected her to have been around for quite a while because I know there are a lot of spirits in my home waiting for my help.  I have not helped them yet because there is a Shamanic class I have been trying to save up to take that teaches how to help lost souls.  It is quite expensive so it is taking me a long time to save up for it.

I felt my intuition guiding me to keep talking with her, so I did.  I asked another question, "What do you want?"

She smiled warmly and folded her hands in front of her tummy, "I want to cross over into the light."

Now, I have never helped a spirit cross over before.  I have heard and seen how others do it, but I felt a strong sense that I needed to learn the shamanic way to do it.  I felt strongly that the shamanic way for it should be the only way I do it.  However, I  felt peaceful and calm and my intuition was telling me to try.

So, first I sent her a wave of green light, of love to test and see if she was a loving spirit.  When the wave hit her, she closed her eyes peacefully and reciprocated the love.  This confirmed that she meant me no harm and was not trying to trick me.

My intuition continued to guide me, and I felt like I should ask her to meld with me ( a method I learned in the webinar I listened to that morning).  I invited her to meld her mind with my mind and to channel through me.  Well, she did.  I started seeing flashes of her life.  I saw it like an old black and white movie with faded colors.  I saw her as a young beautiful woman in some sort of uniform.  I saw her dancing a lot at parties or events with girlfriends and occasionally a good looking man.  The men were in Navy uniforms.  I saw her wearing a poodle skirt and 50's outfit doing the Twist dance.  I also saw her in a very nice skirt suit and working in an office.  I saw her riding in an old large car, like a Cadillac or possibly a Rolls Royce.  She was older in the car, wrinkles on her face.  An old man was driving them up the coast of California.  They were holding hands on the seat.  The flashes were very fast and brief.  I felt her emotions.  She felt like she had lived a colorful, vibrant, fulfilling life.  She felt so peaceful.  Once the flashes stopped, I looked at her and smiled.

I said, "I have never helped a spirit cross over into the light before, but I am willing to try if that is what you want."

She nodded and said, "Yes, please."

I called upon my guides, angels and Archangel Michael, Archangel Raphael, and Archangel Gabriel to help me cross her over into the light.  I drew down bright white light from Heavenly Father (or Source) onto me and her.  I channeled the light through my heart chakra out my palms to her.  I completely filled and surrounded her with light.  A large beam of white light that looked like a worm hole flowed down onto her.  She was smiling and touched the light with her hands.  The light sparkled and I felt so much love around the whole room.  I saw a door open on the wall, bright white light shining through it.  Jesus stepped through the door and walked over to Pearle with open arms.  Her eyes slightly teared up as she saw him and she took his hand.  Holding hands, Jesus led her up the white light tunnel going up.  They disappeared into the sky with the light and they were gone.  The door Jesus had come through shut and the light disappeared.  I felt peaceful and filled with love.  I had just helped cross over a spirit into the light for the very first time.  It felt so natural and beautiful.

I will never forget that experience.  I still want to take the Shamanic class for crossing spirits over, but now I know I don't need it to actually help spirits.  Now, I need to pick an article of clothing, or piece of jewelry to wear when I am "working" so spirits will know when I am available to help them.  I don't want them pestering me when I am doing other things.  I have heard this is a good way to manage that.  I am grateful I have the ability to help spirits.  I love helping people, but I love helping spirits more.  I don't know why.  Maybe it is because fewer people can help them then people who can help other people.  Maybe it is just because it is part of my soul purpose.  Whatever the reason, I will keep doing so and helping all to the best of my ability.

Pearle, I hope you are happy and feel so much love where you are now.  I wish you the best as you continue your journey.

Love, Light, Peace
Bear Raven

Kundalini Reiki II Attunement

Last night I received my 2nd Kundalini Reiki attunement.  I felt the presence of all my guides and animal totems after I called them in.  It felt like I had an audience watching me.  There was a bubble of white light around me and my door keeper was keeping a crowd out like a bouncer.  It was strange because I could not see details of people in the crowd, but I do not think they were my guides.  All my guides and totems were inside the bubble with me.  As I waited for it to begin I felt such great love filling my heart chakra.  It just kept filling up more and more.  It felt good, and I felt so grateful that so many love me.  I could feel it start because it felt like my heart chakra opened and all the love poured out through the rest of my body.  I felt the energy in my palms and my crown chakra.  I felt tickling on my crown, arms and legs.  It could have been my guides letting me know they were with me or it could have been the energy coursing through me.  I just closed my eyes and enjoyed the loving energy.  After some time I started to see things.  I saw myself in a past life in Ireland ( I think it was Ireland, might have been Scotland.)  I was in a wood house preparing a poultice with small dried purple flowers and green leaves.  There was a large man laying on a table with a large gash in his side.  I pressed the dried herbs into the gash and held it there with both hands.  My hands were in reiki position and I was channeling energy through them into the man.  It was amazing.  I felt the emotions and thoughts of this woman.  I knew that if I held my hands and cleared my mind, that I could "heal" others.  I didn't know how or why, but just that I could.  As I was holding my hands to this man's side, I looked down into his eyes and we locked gazes.  There was a spark, something ignited.  The scene flashed with light and I was seeing a different scene.  I was walking and the same man approached me and pushed me up against a wall in a passionate kiss.  The image flashed again and I saw him and I running over grassy hills holding hands.  The scene flashed again and I was in a wood house again, but this time I was delivering a baby.  I saw everything!  It was incredible.  The scene flashed again and I was with the man once more.  We were on the grassy hill quite a ways apart from each other.  We were running.  Someone was chasing us.  He was ahead and I could not run as fast as him.  The man chasing us, caught up to me.  I drew a knife from my belt and turned to face the man screaming as I held the knife above my head to stab him.  As I brought the knife down towards him, he plowed into me knocking me to my knees and wrapping an arm around my neck.  In one fluid movement he brought the knife down and stabbed me.  He was so much stronger than I.  My lover let out a cry of anguish and barrelled into the man and knocked him to his back.  I did not see if he killed him or just knocked him out, but he took me in his arms crying and I died in his arms.

I then saw brief flashes of other random things.  I can't remember all of them.  I know I saw an elk running on one side of me and my rhino running on my other side.  The three of us were running together.  I remember my rhino touching the tip of its horn to my palm chakras, my crown, heart and third eye.  At one point I was walking on top of a lake, or it might of been the ocean.  There was snow all around and it was cold.  It was quiet, serene.  There was ice on the water, but not all of it.  When I reached the center of the body of water, I looked down and saw something move under the water.  I heard a cracking noise as a large creature rose through the water and ice.  I instinctively held out my hand, and a small polar bear stepped up onto the top of the water with me right underneath my hand.  I remember that it was so magnificent and beautiful that I gasped as my hand rested upon its back in its fur.  The polar bear rose on its hind legs and hugged me, knocking me to the ground and licked my face.  I felt so much love for it, and I emanated so much love back to it.  It was such a beautiful moment.  Now, I say it was a small polar bear because even on all fours, their back is higher than my hips, but this polar bear's back was below my hips.  The polar bear let me get up and I placed my hand upon its back again.  It turned its head and looked up at me and nodded.  Then we walked together over the water, my hand still on its back.  Inside, I was very excited about this because as my closest friends know, polar bear is my favorite animal.  I have always had an affinity for them.  This was my first time encountering one in meditation/journey.

After these visualizations, the energy coursing through and around me was really high.  I am really glad I wore my hematite necklace to help ground me.  My head grew very light and I was having a hard time staying awake.  I felt energy trying to go through my lower chakras, but it felt like something was blocking them.  I felt this during most of the attunement.  I started to feel like there was icy hot on my chest.  The sensation spread to my arms and rest of my body.  I felt heat building in my lower abdomen and lower body in the center.

I saw darkness.  A person stepped out of the shadows.  They were completely black, covered in the darkness, like they were a part of it.  I sent a blast wave of bright white light over them.  The light seemed to disintegrate the darkness.  A normal person stepped forward and walked past me.  It was as thought I freed them.  I saw many other brief images, but I cannot remember them.  After a while the energy grew too much and I could not keep my eyes shut because I thought I would tumble out of my chair.  I went to bed at that time, still feeling the energy working in and around me.  I fell asleep quickly and slept very soundly.  This attunement was such a beautiful experience.  I am looking forward to the 3rd one very much.  Once I have taken the 3rd attunement, I will be a master and will be able to attune others.  This is so exciting.  I think I was shown one of my past lives because I was a healer in that life and channeled divine energy to heal, just like reiki.  If that isn't a sign of my life calling, I don't know what is!

Kundalini Reiki

I am very excited as tonight I will be receiving my Kundalini Reiki II attunement.  I wanted to get it right away after my first attunement, but as you all are aware, I took some time for myself.  I feel that it was necessary.  I do not know why at this time, but I feel everything is as it should be and that everything has a reason.  I have felt very mellow all day and relaxed.  Lately, I have been a very busy bee and today was completely different.  I was in such a relaxed state all day that I could have easily drifted off into a nap.  I am still in that state.  I feel it is my body preparing for the attunement tonight.  I feel as though my guides have guided me to be restful and calm today.  It almost feels like the calm before a storm, but a good storm.  :)  I will share my experience of the attunement later tonight or tomorrow.  I feel such a great sense of joy and peace right now.  :)

Automatic Writing

Hello everyone.  I know I sort of went MIA for a while.  I apologize.  I was doing some self healing and examining.  I recently got an automatic writing reading from a wonderful intuitive.  If you would like to check her out, here is her blog: http://healingworks82.blogspot.com/  It really inspired me and I decided to try my hand at it.  I just completed my first attempt and wanted to share it with you all.  I hand wrote it and did it rather fast, so I apologize if my handwriting is hard to read.  I felt rather clear headed and set my mind aside during the process.  I believe I channeled one of my main guides.  I think it went well for my first attempt.  I want to practice more and will share more with you guys in the future.  :)  Here it is:

My New Assignment from My Higher Self

Today I started reading a book called Spiritual Growth, Being Your Higher Self.  I had purchased this book almost a year ago, but had not started to read it until now.  I had loaned it to a friend right after I purchased it.  I think I was not ready for its teachings.  I have just completed my huge forgiveness and healing assignment from my Higher Self.  I think I needed to complete that before moving forward and reading this book. 

I have been off the past week.  I’ve been off spiritually and emotionally.  We just had a full moon and a friend pointed out to me that it is possible the moon put me out of balance.  I feel this is what happened. 

A few weeks ago, I also started a diet and exercise regiment.  This last week I had not followed it and that contributed to me feeling like complete and utter crap I believe! 

Today I pulled myself out of my funk and forced myself to do 18 minutes on the exercise bike. My stomach was bothering me and hurt really bad. I asked Archangel Raphael to help me feel better so that I could do the exercise.  I immediately felt better!  I usually read when I do the exercise bike.  Since I finished the last book I was reading, I decided to start reading Spiritual Growth.  I have actually been planning for at least a week, maybe two, to finally start reading it!  I felt even better once I was done exercising as well.  I made myself an orange and peach Greek yogurt smoothie.  I felt inspired to sit on my back patio and read the book some more.  The more I read, the better I felt. 

Throughout the book, there are meditations.  After I finished the first section I went inside to my office to do the first meditation, which is a meeting with your Higher Self.  I immediately felt my vibration rising as I conducted this meditation.  I conversed with my Higher Self and asked some questions.  My first question was if I had completed the forgiveness assignment fully.  My Higher Self confirmed that I indeed had fully completed the assignment.  My Higher Self was very happy about this.  I then asked what I should work on next, what is my next assignment.  She told me that I must focus on exercising and dieting.  I’ll admit I am a little disappointed that this is what I am to focus on at this time after such a wonderful spiritual growth experience from the reiki healing and forgiveness.  What my Higher Self told me rang true however.  She told me that I cannot stay in a high vibration very long in my current body.  It is too heavy, too grounded.  As she told me this I actually was becoming very uncomfortable from the higher vibration.  It was even slightly painful.  She said my body is not ready for the higher vibrations like the one I was experiencing. 

I know that there are many opinions and debates out there as to whether diet affects spirituality.  I have looked into this and done research.  I do not agree nor disagree with what I have found thus far.  I have always felt like what I eat has always affected me more than physically.  Once I started becoming psychically aware, I started to feel intuitively that my diet and health was holding me back.  My conversation with my Higher Self confirmed this for me today.  Now, please don’t misunderstand what I am explaining here.  This was from my Higher Self to me.  This does not necessarily mean that it applies to everyone else, let alone anyone else but me.  Every single person is different and has different trials and things to go through for growth.  I just know without a doubt that this is what I need to do for me and my spiritual growth.  If it rings true for someone else and helps them grow, then great!  However, I am not stating that this is necessary for anyone who wants to achieve spiritual growth and growth in awareness.  I will be very happy to reap the physical rewards as well as the spiritual from this assignment!

So, I will keep you all posted on my progress and also of anything else spiritual that comes up.  Right now I just have to remember that not giving up is key.  As long as I don’t give up, I will succeed!

March 26, 2013 - Day 30 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – none

Today I started the reiki session and closed my eyes.  I did not feel the reiki energy flow start. As soon as I closed my eyes, I saw my main reiki guide.  She put a hand on my hands and pushed them down gently.  She shook her head and told me I did not need to send the reiki.  I asked her if it was complete then.  She nodded again and said yes.  She smiled at me then faded away.  So, my assignment is completely done.  I felt that it had been complete a few days ago.  I wanted to be sure though, and my guide gave me that confirmation today.  I feel more complete myself, healed.  I feel as though something inside me has shifted and I feel more at peace.  I am very grateful to my Higher Self for asking me to do this forgiveness healing.  I needed to do this for myself.  No one else could have done it for me.  I know I have a great deal many other things that I need to heal within myself.  Everything must be done one step at a time.  Looking back at the past year, I have truly grown by leaps and bounds.  Looking at myself over the past month, I have grown more than in the last six months.  However, I still feel I have a long ways to go.  This does not surprise me though as growth is eternal.  There is no end to how much a person can grow.  This last week of the forgiveness and healing was the most challenging and difficult.  It almost seemed like a part of me did not want to let the remaining pain go.  A part of me wanted to hold onto it because it was all I had left of him.  Now, I see the truth though.  I do truly love him, just as I love everyone in the universe; and even though I had heard the saying that if you truly love someone, you let them go, I did not fully understand that statement before now.  I get it now.  I did let him go, and I let him go with peace, love and light.  A heavy burden has been lifted from my shoulders and I am a lighter person. 

I hope that by sharing this experience with you all, that it will help others too.  I believe we can all learn and help each other.  I am truly surprised at how much this blog has been viewed.  Thank you all my readers for reading and supporting me.  I want to continue to share my experiences with you all, and hope I can help others grow too. 

Love Light Peace

Bear Raven

March 25, 2013 - Day 29 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – none

Today was pretty much the same as yesterday.  I did not see anything, or feel anything other than the calmness of the reiki.  I did not even feel compelled to do the reiki in my office near my altar or to even use any crystals.   It felt like he and his wife were going farther and father away from me.  The distance was so great today; I did not feel them or sense them at all.  I have noticed that their energies have been harder and harder for me to focus on.  I am not seeking them out.  Before when I thought of them to focus sending the reiki to them, I picked up on them so quickly.  Now, they are not there at all.  It’s almost as if this is my guides’ way of telling me that I no longer need to send them the reiki.  I want to follow my Higher Self’s directions completely though.  I will follow through until the end.

March 24, 2013 - Day 28 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Celestite (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Sardonyx (nearby), Moonstone (nearby)

Today I felt even more disconnected from him and his wife.  Up until the past couple days, I felt a connection to them and to the love I was sending them.  Today I saw nothing as I channeled the reiki.  I felt its calm loving energy, that is all.  When I felt the energy stop, I blessed and sealed the session.  Today’s session was about 5 minutes.  Although the 30 days is not yet up, I feel like my assignment is complete.  After having such a strong connection to them for so many days, this feels strange, but almost as if I knew it was coming to be like this. 

March 23, 2013 - Day 27 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Celestite (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Sardonyx (nearby), Moonstone (nearby)

Today I did not feel the urgency to conduct the reiki as I had felt in all the other sessions.  I saw the house and poured the reiki and light into it.  I sent hearts of light into the house as well.  I felt the reiki flowing but it was not as strong as it had been before.  I saw the energy stop flowing before I felt it stop.  I blessed and sealed the session.  Today’s session was about 6 minutes.

March 22, 2013 - Day 26 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Celestite (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Sardonyx (nearby), Moonstone (nearby), Apophyllite (wearing around neck)

Today I saw the house again.  I poured more love and light into the home.  Green vines and white flowers sprouted from the ground under the home and around it.  The vines and flowers spread inside the house growing over all the walls and ceilings.  A beautiful green and gold tree with white flowers grew up in the center of the house.  I blessed the tree to be a guardian, a protector of the home and the family.  I saw the children running through the house laughing.  It seemed they could see the magical plant life within their home.  I put giant heart shields around the entire home.  White light sprouted from the ground under the house and spread around it, almost reaching the neighboring homes.  I saw drops of blackness leaving the home through the doors and windows.  The house was being cleansed.  I made sure to put a white shield bubble around the entire property.  I also put an invisibility shield around all the other shields so that the light of the home will not attract things.  Once I felt the home was completely cleansed, guarded and shielded.  I put individual white shields of light around him, his wife and their three children.  I heard and saw five white beams of light come down from the sky and into each of them, filling them with healing light.  I walked up to him and handed him a white rose.  I told him I wished him and his family peace, love, light, prosperity, happiness.  I also told him I forgive him and that I hope he lives his life happily and grows to be the great man I know he can be.  I told him to go, shine, grow, learn your life lessons and I hope to see him again as one being of light to another.  I saw a small spark of light shine in his chest and he took the rose silently.  I smiled, bowed and turned and walked away quietly.  After I walked out of the house, my main reiki guide was there waiting for me.  She put her arm in mine and we walked away together.  I knew that this session was now over.  I blessed and sealed the session.  Today’s session was approximately 8 minutes.

March 21, 2013 - Day 25 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Celestite (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Sardonyx (nearby), Moonstone (nearby) Apophyllite (wearing around neck)

In today’s session I did not experience very much.  I was in a lot of pain today.  The pain was so excruciating that it made it difficult to focus.  I did a reiki session on myself first, and that helped quite a bit.  However, the pain was still there distracting me.  As I channeled the reiki energy to him and his wife, I saw a house instead of them.  Heart shaped bubbles of different colored light floated down from the sky into and around their house.  I just knew by my gut feeling that it was their home I was seeing.  The heart bubbles created a shield around the home.  Pink and green light filled the house completely.  I kept channeling the energy until I felt it stop on its own.  I blessed and sealed the session.  This session was approximately 6 minutes.

March 20, 2013 - Day 24 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Celestite (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Sardonyx (nearby), Apophyllite (wearing around neck)

Today I think was shown the beginning of the end of this healing process.  As I started channeling the reiki energy, I saw him and his wife kneeling in position.  This time we were at the very top of a peak of a snow drifted mountain.  The top sloped up the back at a gradual incline.  The other side was a cliff drop off.  We were facing the cliff side.  I could see more mountains and sky all around us.  I placed my hands on his shoulders.  As the reiki flowed, the snow started to melt dramatically and slide down off the cliff like a water fall.  She started to slide with the water, panic on her face.  He remained calm and unchanged.  She reached out to him with an arm as she started to slide closer and closer to the edge.  He slid toward her, reaching to grab her.  I remained where I was standing, unaffected.  I kept my palms towards him, sending the reiki.  He grabbed her forearm just as she went over the side.  He was lying on his belly, holding onto her.  She was screaming and flailing.

He asked her, “Do you trust me?”

She shook her head no and was crying. 

He looked strained and asked her again, “Do you trust me?”

She screamed, “No, I’m going to fall!”

As they had this conversation, I wove a ribbon of light blue light around their arms and wrist, tying them together, reinforcing their bond.

He gritted his teeth and said in a very commanding voice to her, “I need you to trust me.”

Something in the way he said it made her stop flailing and look into his eyes.  I could clearly see the fear.  She held still and gripped his arm in return then nodded yes.  As soon as she nodded, she started to float up in the air.  Her legs rose so that she was in the same position he was, on her belly facing him.  She let out a short relieved laugh and he smiled at her.  All she needed to do was trust him, give him that trust and she was safe.

I found this very interesting.  As I pondered this, I then saw her standing in front of an oval floor mirror that was very dirty.  She wiped a hand across the top so she could see her face.  I saw a beautiful young woman with long curly blonde hair.  She looked peaceful.  My vision panned out and I saw a different woman standing in front of the mirror.  It was a deformed, ugly woman in dirty clothing.  She was in an attic that was dusty and there was clutter around.  She was snarling and had sharp pointed teeth.  Her stringy hair hung around her face so I couldn’t see it too well.  Then I saw the peaceful beautiful woman in the mirror again where the dirt had been wiped away.  I think what this meant is that she is transforming.  She had (or has) some ugly traits that are beginning to fade or transform through healing.  I cannot say my healing is doing this for her or not.  I just think that this is what is going on with her at this time. 

I was taken back to the mountain.  The top was covered in green grass now that all the snow had melted and fallen off.  He and his wife were standing a few feet apart.  Three orbs of white light flew down between them one at a time.  It was their three children.  They all hugged in a tight group hug, almost forming a ball.  I drew down white light, purple light, pink light, and gold light and created an egg shaped shield, or cocoon around them.  They all linked hands and then stepped off the mountain cliff.  As they stepped off, they dipped and floated into the air, on their bellies.  Wings of light sprouted from all of them.  I saw one of the children in detail.  It was a little girl with long curly auburn hair.  She giggled excitedly and wriggled her feet. 

This was not the first time I had seen her.  I saw her in a dream I had long ago.  It was a dream I had after praying and praying about him after he had broke up with me.  I thought the dream was a look at my future.  I thought she was my daughter.  I have not told many about this dream as it is quite personal and emotional for me.  Seeing her with him and his wife and the two boys, I knew.  She was never mine, she was always his.  This brought a strange new sense of closure and peace to me.  I watched them fly off into the clouds and disappear.  I turned to leave, to walk down the mountain. At my feet I saw a white mink, my mink.  I picked her up and she nuzzled my neck and face.  With her on my shoulder, I started to walk down the slope of the mountain.  Then I saw my main reiki guide and she clapped her hands together once, smiling.  She gave me a soft hug and told me that I am doing so well.  I knew that this was the end of the session.  I blessed and sealed the session.  Today’s session was approximately 6 minutes.

The feeling I felt at the time of walking down the mountain’s back, leads me to believe I am drawing closer to the end of the assignment.  I know in my mind that it is getting close to the end because I know I only need to do it for 30 days.  However, up until today I hadn’t really felt like the end was drawing near.  The sessions had all left me feeling about the same, except for today.  Today I feel closure.  I always felt peace during and after every session, but today I felt closure.  I also felt like he and his family are ready to go their way and I am ready to go mine, peacefully.

March 19, 2013 - Day 23 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Shiva Lingham (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Ametrine (nearby), Sardonyx (nearby), Apophyllite (wearing around neck)

I feel very light headed today.  I used the sardonyx for my grounding and shielding meditation and it made me light headed.  The reiki continued to make me light headed.  This is normal when reaching higher vibrations.  When I started to channel the reiki I saw an instant huge beam of light running through me.  I saw him and his wife kneeling and I placed one hand on his shoulder and one on hers.  The bright light flowed into them immediately.  I felt the energy very strongly.  I grew tired quickly as well.  I saw them dancing.  He was in a tux and she was in a wedding dress but it had black roses all over it.  They were very stern and serious looking. Small threads of light were dancing around them and through them. They started to smile and he picked her up in his arms.  As he did so, the threads of light wove through her dress and the black roses started to turn to white roses.  Then I saw the ocean again.  This time they dove in the ocean, it was night, I saw the moon.  They sank to the very bottom of the ocean.  Their legs went into the sand at the bottom until they were waist deep in the sand.  I started to doze at this point and I saw other things but I can’t recall all of them.  I heard conversation and saw people inside a submarine, or other type of underwater vessel.  They were trying to solve some sort of problem.  I was there with them. It was like I was part of them.  I saw some other things that I can’t remember.  Then I saw him and her standing on the beach facing each other in the moonlight.  They had their hands up in front of them, palms out.  Their hands were touching, palm to palm.  A spark of light appeared between them around their stomachs.  It grew into a ball, and the ball grew into and orb until it engulfed them.  It grew so big and bright that all I saw eventually was this bright star.  Then I felt the energy shift and I knew the healing was complete for today.  Today’s session was about 8 minutes. 

March 18, 2013 - Day 22 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Shiva Lingham (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Ametrine (nearby), Apophyllite (wearing around neck)

In today’s session I definitely nodded off.  But I still saw things as I slept.  I saw him and her kneeling again, as is custom now.  I put my hands on his shoulders as the healing began.  I started to see many different flashes of different things that didn’t make sense or seem related to him or her that I know of.  I can’t really recall what they even were, just that they were strange things to see.  At one point I did see myself and him standing about 6 feet apart.  There was a silver cord connecting us.  I was holding a pair of scissors to the cord.  I heard one of my guides tell me to go ahead and cut it.  I focused on the cord and noticed that there was a difference on color so that it actually looked like two different cords connected.  The one on my end was only a foot maybe a foot and a half long and it was lighter in color I think.  It might have even been more silver.  The rest of the cord that extended from the end of mine to him filled the rest of the space between us, 5 feet or so.  His was darker in color, maybe more blue.  As I was studying this and not cutting the cord, my guide continued to speak.  My guide told me to release him, to let him go.  It was then, and only then, I truly realized that I had never truly let him go…

My guides encouraged me and told me that this was a good thing for both of us.  I went ahead and cut the cord where mine and his met.  My cord, free from his, sucked itself into my belly button.  His cord did the same, returning to inside him.  I felt a surge of the reiki energy right as this happened.  I could feel a difference inside me.  It felt good.  I focused on just relaxing and continuing to let the reiki flow and then I saw my rhino’s nose right in front of me.  I focused on him, and saw the rest of him.  He nuzzled me and I gave him a big hug.  It felt like he was there to comfort me and acknowledge what I had just done.  After a few more moments, I felt the surge of reiki energy end and I saw my main reiki guide brushing her hands together (as one does when done with some hard work).  It was at this time that I snapped my eyes open and woke up.  I blessed and sealed the session.  This session was approximately 10 minutes.

March 17, 2013 - Day 21 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Shiva Lingham (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Ametrine (nearby), Apophyllite (wearing around neck)

In today’s reiki session I saw the ocean again.  Turquoise light flowed into both him and her again as well.  I saw the flowers floating on the surface of a large wave.  The flowers were multi colored.  I saw them kneeling in the sand with one of my guides laying a white seashell on each side of them.  One shell was laid for each direction, North, South, East and West.  Seeing this again reminded me that I had seen it in yesterday’s session as well.  Then I saw empty blackness and there were people standing in the shadows.  One by one they began to emerge so I could see their faces.  Not everyone stepped forward, but the few that did I recognized as people I had blamed for ruining my relationship with him.  The things they had said to me, they were repeating.  I was focused on their moving lips, on the words that had hurt me.  Then I felt the reiki healing them and me at the same time.  It was as if the reiki was erasing, or healing their words.  The reiki healed that aspect that was a part of the whole negative experience.  Then it was over quite quickly.  I saw turquoise light again, floating in a big ball, and then I formed it into a heart around him and her.  They stood, turned around and walked away down the beach hand in hand.  I felt the energy flow cease.  I blessed and sealed the session.  This session was approximately 6 minutes.

March 16, 2013 - Day 20 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Shiva Lingham (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Ametrine (nearby), Apophyllite (wearing around neck)

Today I saw some interesting things during the session.  It wasn’t like yesterday’s experience, but that was a whole journey.  As soon as I started channeling the reiki today, I saw a huge ocean wave with white flowers floating on it come rolling down on top of him and his wife.   I saw them running hand in hand into the wave, smiling and laughing.  As it washed over them, it was healing and cleansing them.  I could feel this.  I could also tell that they both needed grounding and that is another reason they needed the healing of the ocean, and I could feel that is was indeed grounding them.  The flowers looked like white roses at first, but they changed into lilies.  The water was a beautiful light blue and turquoise color.  I saw the beach and smelled the ocean air, the salt.  I even saw the sun high in the sky shining brightly.  They ran along the beach, swam, playing together.  They even swam out past the waves and floated on their backs peacefully in the water.  Then they were kneeling on the sand and I put my hands on his wife’s shoulders.  I was drawn to her.  Very light turquoise light flowed into and surrounded her like a bubble.  Then I started to hear squabbling and saw a mouth that was being hurtful, like a weapon with words.  I just knew it was hers and she had been hurting him with it.  I continued to let the reiki flow and do it’s healing.  I saw light surround and fill her mouth.  I saw their hands holding again and I put bands, like ribbons, around their hands and wrists, tying them together with healing light.  I then saw them fighting again, pointing fingers at each other.  I used the light to draw a cord between them, connecting them.  I wrapped the same blue, turquoise light ribbon around the cord securing it with healing light.  The fighting stopped after a little while.  I saw tropical mountains, like Hawaii or New Zealand.  It was raining.  The three of us were standing on the beach and the rain poured down on all three of us.  It felt cool, refreshing and healing.  The rain drops were large.  The raindrops started to turn into money right before they reached us, and all three of us started catching the money!  I was pleasantly surprised by this.  I have been praying for more abundance and also wishing for abundance for him and his wife as well.  I have been asking that they be prosperous in all aspects of their lives.  So, seeing this was quite reassuring.  I started running, we all started running.  We were running over the sand, over hills and hills of it.  We picked up more speed as we went and kept catching the money out of the air as we ran.  It felt good, the wind on my face and in my hair.  I then saw a large ball of light green, the turquoise healing light and felt the energy flow stop.  I blessed and sealed the session.  Today’s session was approximately 6 minutes.

March 15, 2013 - Day 19 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Shiva Lingham (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Ametrine (nearby), Apophyllite (wearing around neck)

During today’s reiki session I actually went on a journey.  I did not intend for this to happen, it just did.  I hope I can remember everything to share with you all.  I started the session the same way I do everyone.  I pictured him and his wife kneeling side my side in front of me.  I placed my hands on his shoulders.  Rainbow light came down and filled him immediately.  He was holding her hand and the light spread to her also.  After a few moments I saw a bunch of Native Americans in a circle around us.  My Native American guides were among them.  The others I did not recognize.  They were dancing, drumming and chanting.  Then I saw a large bonfire next to us, in the center of the circle.  As the ritual continued, I saw fire embers burning parts of him and his wife.  It was not to harm them, although it looked painful.  It seemed to be a cleansing fire.  There was a long oval being burned on her forearm.  His tongue was being burned out.  There were spots elsewhere on them but those were the two main ones my eyes were drawn to.  As those spots burned, they turned to ash quickly and floated away.  Then, white light appeared where they had been burned.  The white light healed the burns fully.  They held fingers to the wounds as they burned and as they healed.  Wonder, astonishment and pain filled their eyes. 

Once they were fully healed, I saw a long dark tunnel with white light at the end of it.  The three of us were running through the tunnel.  Once we made it out of the tunnel, we were in a beautiful meadow.  It was very closed in.  There seemed to be walls around it.  It might have been walls of forest.  I am not sure because my eyes were drawn to the center.  In the center was the largest most beautiful tree I had ever seen.  It had a very tall thick trunk that had white and gray bark.  The bark looked just like the bark of a willow tree.  The tree might have been a willow, but it did not have the long swaying leaves.  It was very tall.  I walked to the tree admiring it.  He and his wife knelt on the grass together, side by side.

A rhino walked near the tree and towards me.  I recognized it immediately.  Only once or twice, I have seen a rhino nose to nose with me.  It never talked to me, but I strongly feel it is one of my animal totems.  The rhino stopped once it was standing right in front of me.  The tip of its horn sparkled a bright white star of light.  I saw myself reach out and touch the tip of its horn with the tip of my index finger.  The light disappeared and the rhino dipped its head, almost as if to bow or acknowledge what just happened.  The rhino wandered off, but stayed nearby. 

I then noticed that there were a large number of people in the meadow.  I did not recognize any of them.  They seemed to be strangers, or public.  Some were just sitting around talking.  Others were wandering around seeming to be going somewhere.  It felt like they were visiting the meadow like as a park or as tourists.  Some of the people were going up to the tree and using pocket knives to cut away pieces of the bark from the trunk.  As I saw this, I noticed an area of the trunk with a rather large piece of bark missing.  The wound in the trunk was completely white.  I felt pain in my heart for the tree seeing this.  Why were people cutting pieces from it?  I did not like this at all.  Then he rose from his kneeling position on the grass and walked up to the tree, right to the spot where a large piece of bark was missing.  He had the missing bark piece in his hand and he put it back.  Instantly I knew that the tree was me, or a part of me, and the pieces of bark being cut off were wounds of my soul.  I felt something as he did this.  I can’t explain it, but it felt like healing.  That is the best way I can put it.  It didn’t feel bad, but it didn’t feel great either.  It was more of a good feeling, but not super.  Then he nodded to me and slowly walked back to where his wife was kneeling and knelt beside her again. 

My rhino stepped forward then and dipped its head again, towards my finger that had touched its horn.  It was as though the rhino put the thought in my head, but I knew what to do.  I stepped up to the tree.  Upon being closer I noticed a crack starting at where the piece had been put back and going all the way up the tree as far as I could see.  This made perfect sense to me.  I had known for a long time that his wound he left had left terrible damage in me.  I slowly reached out and touched the replaced piece of bark with my index finger.  Immediately the same white sparkling star of light emanated from my finger tip as soon as I touched the tree.  A green vine of ivy started growing around the wound and up through the crack.  White flowers sprouted from the vine and there was also white and green light around the vine.  I smiled.  I turned to face him and his wife and I placed a bright green heart of light around them both.  They accepted it and then stood, nodded to me and walked away hand in hand. 

I felt the energy flow stop then.  I blessed and sealed the session.  This session was approximately 8 minutes.

I am so grateful that my rhino came to me during this journey.  I am so grateful that I journeyed during this reiki session!  This is not the first time that I have gone on a journey when I was not intending to do so.  I think they just happen when I am ready and when they are needed.  I am amazed by this journey.  It was such a beautiful experience.  I saw myself being healed by me!  I feel healed too.  Some of the things from the journey I do not understand yet, but I know I will upon meditation and conversation with my guides when the time is right.

March 14, 2013 - Day 18 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Selenite (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Apophyllite (wearing around neck)

Today I was inspired to hold my apophyllite between my hands while sending the reiki.  I felt a lot of heat around me as I channeled the reiki.  As I sent my thoughts of forgiveness and love, I saw myself placing a large bouquet of wild roses at his feet.  The roses were white, yellow and baby pink.  It wasn’t a typical bouquet.  The roses were laid flat and it looked more like a table center piece.  I saw a tropical forest today.  He and his wife were floating on their backs in the river.  I had my hands on his shoulders as they slowly floated down river.  After a little bit, I switched and put my hands on her shoulders.  It felt like the reiki grew stronger for her.  Perhaps she needed more than him today.  It also rained on us.  It was a refreshing rain that felt very good.  It felt loving.  There was a waterfall also and the water and the rain turned baby soft pink.  Large amounts of hearts of all colors floated down onto us on the river.  It was very beautiful and I just felt love all around us.  I didn’t feel the reiki flow really stop today, but I instantly grew very tired.  As soon as this happened my main reiki guide let me know it was time to end the session.  I blessed and sealed the session.  Surprisingly after the session my apophyllite crystal was only luke warm.  With all the heat I felt, I had expected it to feel hot.  Today’s session was about 7 minutes.

March 13, 2013 - Day 17 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Selenite (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Apophyllite (wearing around neck)

Once again I found myself nearly dozing during my reiki session.  I saw a little more today then I have seen the past few days.  I put my hands on his shoulders in my mind.  White sparkling light came down filling him and his wife.  Then thousands of soft pink hearts came down and filled them and surrounded them entirely.  The hearts just kept coming.  I sent thoughts of forgiveness and love while channeling also.  I do that every day as this is a forgiveness exercise for me.  After a little while I was drawn to one of her organs.  I think it was the liver but it could have been the appendix or spleen.  I filled dark spots on it with blue light.  I saw the grid orb of the organ and started filling the black lines with bright turquoise light.  It was more of a green light that had started as blue but gradually turned to green.  I put a lot of light into the orb and the organ.  Soon I felt the energy change and I saw my main reiki guide brushing her hands together and smiling.  I knew this meant we were done for today.  I blessed and sealed the session.  This session was about 6 minutes.

March 12, 2013 - Day 16 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Selenite (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Calcite (nearby), rose quartz (nearby), Apophyllite (wearing around neck)

Today’s session was very calming to me.  I almost fell asleep during the session.  I didn’t see a whole lot today.  I thought I saw the wife holding papers in her hand and I heard them both talking about taking her to the hospital.  This was a brief visual/auditory experience as it happened while I was dozing off and ended as soon as I sort of woke with a start.  Maybe I started to dream, or maybe I saw their current situation.  It is all speculation at this point and intuition.  Overall, I feel this was another beautiful session.  I just feel very relaxed and serene.  I wasn’t sure if I felt the energy flow stop, so I asked my guides to give me a sign if it had stopped.  Right after I asked, my dog let out a very short and soft growl.  I think that was my sign.  I blessed and sealed the session.  This session was about 7 minutes.

March 11, 2013 - Day 15 - The Halfway Point - Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Selenite (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Calcite (nearby), rose quartz (nearby), Apophyllite (wearing around neck)

Before I did my reiki today, I meditated and visited my higher self.  Before I could even ask her any questions, she said I am “doing beautifully”.  I asked her if it mattered which kind of reiki method I used for my forgiveness exercise and for healing myself.  To both she said, “It does not matter.  All that matters is intent.”  I felt so much love during the entire meditation, love that I desperately needed.  I brought up the wild child I had seen, my inner child.  I merely thought of it, she responded to my thoughts.  She told me that yes indeed I had seen my inner child.  I asked what I should do about it.  She just smiled knowingly and told me that I already know and that I am right on track.  She hugged me several times and comforted me.  It was so pleasant being loved by myself like that.  I can’t truly put it into words.  My heart swelled with warmth of unconditional love.  I asked her if she had any other messages for me before I left.  All she told me was to keep healing myself with reiki every day too.  Then she said that I need a lot of healing.  I knew this was true.  I took out a magenta rose and handed it to her.  She smiled the same knowing smile at me and then she led me to leave. 

Then I did my reiki sessions for the day.  I felt the reiki immediately after I called it in.  I felt it in my head and root chakra then felt it flow through my heart chakra to my palms.  Same as I always do, I sent loving thoughts of forgiveness, love, peace, harmony, well wishes, etc. while channeling the reiki.  I saw him and his wife kneeling facing each other on a giant magenta rose.  I had my hands on his shoulders, letting the reiki flow into him.  After a short period of time, I felt the reiki flow stop.  I wanted to continue channeling it, but knew I felt it stop.  I was going to reach for my pendulum to confirm, but then I remembered my main reiki guide is trying to teach me to trust myself.  I asked myself if I had felt the flow stop.  Yes, I most certainly had.  So, I went ahead and blessed and sealed the session.  This session was approximately 6 minutes.

Part of me can't believe it has already been 15 days...  I feel like I have already healed and grown so much!  The other part of me feels like, "That's it?  That's all you've accomplished?  You got a long way to go missy!"   Looking at all the anger, hatred, resentment, and spite I was holding onto so tightly in my heart for the last almost 11 years, I truly have come a long way already.  All those emotions are no longer connected to this man and his wife for me.  I do not even feel them existing in me any more.  I only feel unconditional love for them, as I do for every living thing and beings of light.  I hope their lives are improving as much as mine is, even more so!  Today marks the halfway point.  I feel like there is still a huge enlightenment, or growth spurt coming that will be a direct result or related to this...  I am looking forward to it.  =)

March 10, 2013 - Day 14 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Selenite (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Calcite (nearby)

I did today’s session later in the evening.  I have felt tired and off all day, but I was not going to let that interfere with my reiki session.  I felt the reiki right away after I called it in.  I placed my hands on his shoulders.  He and his wife lied down on a beach.  The ocean waves rolled in and partly under them.  I didn’t see anything else.  I began to feel more tired than I have felt all day and then felt the reiki flow end.  I reached for my pendulum to confirm as I always do.  But this time I felt I should ask my main reiki guide directly, so I did.  She told me that yes, I have sent enough reiki for today.  She asked me if I felt the flow stop.  I told her yes and she told me that I have no reason to use the pendulum then.  She told me to be more confident.  This made a lot of sense.  I blessed and sealed the session. Tonight’s session was about 7 minutes.

March 9, 2013 - Day 13 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Selenite (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Calcite (nearby)

Today I am very tired and drained.  I did not see anything in today’s session.  However, I did feel the reiki on my hands strongly.  I feel even more drained after the session.  Once I felt the flow stop, I used my pendulum to confirm that I had sent enough for today.  I got a no, so I continued to send reiki.  After a few more minutes I felt a change in the energy and asked again.  This time I got a yes.  I blessed and sealed the session.  Today’s session was approximately 10 minutes.

March 8, 2013 - Day 12 Reiki Healing & Forgiveness

Crystals used – Selenite (prayer & nearby), Crazy lace agate (nearby), Carnelian (nearby), Calcite (nearby), Apophyllite (wearing around neck)

I used the Kundalini Reiki method again today as I feel more in tune with it.  I did not see much today, but that does not matter.  What matters is the intent and feeling of peace.  I feel very calm, serene, in harmony with the world.  Of course, I am finding I always feel this way when I do reiki.  =)  I did see him holding his wife, hugging her tenderly in a consoling or comforting way and rocking back and forth.  I also saw a bunch of little hearts of floating energy (magenta, big surprise! lol) to them.  I easily noticed the feel of the reiki today.  When I felt the flow end, I asked my pendulum if I had sent enough.  I got an immediate yes.  I asked if I needed to send any more today and got and immediate no.  I blessed and sealed the session.  This session was about 7 minutes.  I feel they are receiving the reiki easier each day and thus the sessions are less intense.  I feel this is a good thing.  I feel really good about what I am doing and how I am doing it.  I will do a meditation soon and ask my higher self about my progress.   

Thank you to all who are reading this and keeping up on my progress.  Thank you for your love and support!  =)